Hey blog!
It's been a while and it's been a pretty rough week so far.
Scored pretty well for a Chinese test. At least there's something to rejoice about. Thank goodness! However, every other thing seem to be falling off place.
"Someone must have cursed you real bad!" Was Dinika's comment. Haha, I feel the same way. Wonder who that person is, and what the heck have I done wrong. Just joking, but it's pretty ugly so far, really, and this is not a good sign.
Anyway, I was just falling behind in English. Pretty alright with E-math. There have not been any indications on sciences and humans yet, improving in my Chinese and am pretty much lacking behind in A-math and POA.
Anyway, I hung out with Aishah yesterday. It has been so very long since the last time I met her. It has been really long since the last time I watched a concert band performance too. It had also been long since the last time I had put my heart into music - band music.
After yesterday's performance, I figured that I was not the only one who felt that pieces of my heart has been missing. I finally have the inspiration to try again. I have been practising and all that, but the competition is really near. I am near to blaming myself now. If only I had not fallen out of the league myself. Now I have to work three times as hard just to get back on track again.
Wish me luck! I hope I can do it! I want to be better. Not just good, not just back on track, but be better. Better than just enough.
Oh! I was just done with Twilight. Am reading New Moon now! Awesome, eh!
Look on the bright side,
CCA :)
Wednesday, February 25, 2009
Monday, February 23, 2009
Dissatisfaction
Dear blog,
I've been in school on time these days. I've tried my best not to fall asleep in class. Yet, I am still not satisfied with my progress.
In the first month, I was able to keep my pace in handing up work on time. However, I do realise that I have fallen back on task again. Feels like I've been very tired nowadays. I've cut down on playing and I've been staying home too.
Hopefully I'll be able to catch up again. I just had a really warm bath and it soothes me a little now. Shall turn in after this, again, with my work incomplete.
I hope I'll be able to be on task again at the end of this week, by the start of next week.
Cheers!
CCA
I've been in school on time these days. I've tried my best not to fall asleep in class. Yet, I am still not satisfied with my progress.
In the first month, I was able to keep my pace in handing up work on time. However, I do realise that I have fallen back on task again. Feels like I've been very tired nowadays. I've cut down on playing and I've been staying home too.
Hopefully I'll be able to catch up again. I just had a really warm bath and it soothes me a little now. Shall turn in after this, again, with my work incomplete.
I hope I'll be able to be on task again at the end of this week, by the start of next week.
Cheers!
CCA
Friday, February 20, 2009
Frustration.
Dear blog,
I am about to rant about my aweful morning. I had Geography at the top of my time-table and I was looking forward to it, having my workbook newly bought and fresh energy from the awesome Famous Amos and mocha, made by myself, for breakfast.
We were given our test paper back and it was something that I was not really looking forward for as I knew that I had not done really well. Unfortunately, I had worse than I thought and it was all thanks to my little detailed answers. I had all my points written out, however, I did not compare point by point and I did not fulfill my duty to answer the question "why?". Thus, marks were deducted, leaving me with a pathetic 5 upon 15.
Next lesson was English and I couldn't wait to get into class. English is my favourite subject in school. We had a test today. It was on a passage that we have done before. I tried my best to answer as flawlessly as I could and I had not enough time for my summary. I rushed through it and used up every single second that I had.
When the time was up, my teacher told me to pen down or else she'll minus 1 mark. Having written barely 50 words, I decided to forgo the single mark and continued writing. She then told me to pen down again unless I want a mark deducted again. At that point of time, I was only about 80 words or so. So, I thought for forgoing the mark again and stopped only at the third call.
I was so pissed at myself that I could not complete the paper even with my marks deducted unconditionally. To top it off, my teacher actually came up to me after class and warned me that she would actually send me for disciplinary actions just because I did not pen down. Excuse me!
Then, I had a math test. Was still fuming at that time. Hopefully I did well. Oh, and did I mention that I could not answer my POA test? It was horrible.
Anyway, I can only hope for the best now. English was my favourite subject and it still is in present time. I hope it will not change sooner than I thought. As I have mentioned before, teachers play a big role in a student's life. Be it for the better or the worse. The environment counts too.
Despaired,
CCA
I am about to rant about my aweful morning. I had Geography at the top of my time-table and I was looking forward to it, having my workbook newly bought and fresh energy from the awesome Famous Amos and mocha, made by myself, for breakfast.
We were given our test paper back and it was something that I was not really looking forward for as I knew that I had not done really well. Unfortunately, I had worse than I thought and it was all thanks to my little detailed answers. I had all my points written out, however, I did not compare point by point and I did not fulfill my duty to answer the question "why?". Thus, marks were deducted, leaving me with a pathetic 5 upon 15.
Next lesson was English and I couldn't wait to get into class. English is my favourite subject in school. We had a test today. It was on a passage that we have done before. I tried my best to answer as flawlessly as I could and I had not enough time for my summary. I rushed through it and used up every single second that I had.
When the time was up, my teacher told me to pen down or else she'll minus 1 mark. Having written barely 50 words, I decided to forgo the single mark and continued writing. She then told me to pen down again unless I want a mark deducted again. At that point of time, I was only about 80 words or so. So, I thought for forgoing the mark again and stopped only at the third call.
I was so pissed at myself that I could not complete the paper even with my marks deducted unconditionally. To top it off, my teacher actually came up to me after class and warned me that she would actually send me for disciplinary actions just because I did not pen down. Excuse me!
Then, I had a math test. Was still fuming at that time. Hopefully I did well. Oh, and did I mention that I could not answer my POA test? It was horrible.
Anyway, I can only hope for the best now. English was my favourite subject and it still is in present time. I hope it will not change sooner than I thought. As I have mentioned before, teachers play a big role in a student's life. Be it for the better or the worse. The environment counts too.
Despaired,
CCA
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Over-Exhaustion
Dear blog,
Was extremely tired, you have no idea. Decided to rest for the day. Had headache and was really in no mood for school. In the sense that I was sure not to be able to concentrate in school. It will only add on to my exhaustion.
Went to the doc just now. Had myself examined and he was a really nice doc. Talked to him and explained that it must have just been due to fatigue. He agreed, adding that it may be because of stress too. It's not stress, rest assured, but my physique sure is stressed out.
With today's rest, I hope I'll be able to face tomorrow with a better health. Had three medicines to drink too. Hell man. Hate medicines. Am arguing should I or should I not drink them. There's one that will cause drowsiness too. Damn.
Anyway, am having a POA test too. Was supposed to be today. Hope I will do well in it tomorrow! :)
Peace out,
CCA.
Was extremely tired, you have no idea. Decided to rest for the day. Had headache and was really in no mood for school. In the sense that I was sure not to be able to concentrate in school. It will only add on to my exhaustion.
Went to the doc just now. Had myself examined and he was a really nice doc. Talked to him and explained that it must have just been due to fatigue. He agreed, adding that it may be because of stress too. It's not stress, rest assured, but my physique sure is stressed out.
With today's rest, I hope I'll be able to face tomorrow with a better health. Had three medicines to drink too. Hell man. Hate medicines. Am arguing should I or should I not drink them. There's one that will cause drowsiness too. Damn.
Anyway, am having a POA test too. Was supposed to be today. Hope I will do well in it tomorrow! :)
Peace out,
CCA.
Monday, February 16, 2009
Tiring Valentine's
Dear blog,
Had a really tiring Valentine's this year. I do not have a soul-mate yet but I still have my friends. Thank god. :)
Went to meet Caroline and her cell group. Went for their service and it was pretty fun. The pastor was preaching about the top 3 things that woman and man need in a relationship.
The first in woman's list is affection, totally agreed.
The first in man's list was none other than sexual fulfillment, how expected!
The second in woman's list being communication, again, agreed.
Second in man's was recreational companionship. I salute them for this.
The third in woman's was Honesty & open-ness, can't agree more.
In man's was attractive spouse. My salutation just got crushed. Hah!
Well, one thing that got me laughing was when the pastor pointed out that men aren't God. Hence, they need these mortally selfish aspects. This also rightfully justified their needs, I felt. Good job, pastor. XD
And then I met up with Amanda, Darryl Mok (my favourite brother), amanda's friends, Alfreda and Shao Wei. Was supposed to meet up with Phyone and Princess too. Missed Princess a lot. However, due to some unseen circumstances, I could not.
There was a thing that kind of pissed me off too. Shall not think about it no more.
Alright, blog, I shall sleep now. I am so tired physically! I need more rest!! School life is really tough!
In need of rest,
CCA
Had a really tiring Valentine's this year. I do not have a soul-mate yet but I still have my friends. Thank god. :)
Went to meet Caroline and her cell group. Went for their service and it was pretty fun. The pastor was preaching about the top 3 things that woman and man need in a relationship.
The first in woman's list is affection, totally agreed.
The first in man's list was none other than sexual fulfillment, how expected!
The second in woman's list being communication, again, agreed.
Second in man's was recreational companionship. I salute them for this.
The third in woman's was Honesty & open-ness, can't agree more.
In man's was attractive spouse. My salutation just got crushed. Hah!
Well, one thing that got me laughing was when the pastor pointed out that men aren't God. Hence, they need these mortally selfish aspects. This also rightfully justified their needs, I felt. Good job, pastor. XD
And then I met up with Amanda, Darryl Mok (my favourite brother), amanda's friends, Alfreda and Shao Wei. Was supposed to meet up with Phyone and Princess too. Missed Princess a lot. However, due to some unseen circumstances, I could not.
There was a thing that kind of pissed me off too. Shall not think about it no more.
Alright, blog, I shall sleep now. I am so tired physically! I need more rest!! School life is really tough!
In need of rest,
CCA
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Happy Valentine's Day!
Dear blog,
While many rise to the occasion where love is in the air, there are some out there who are not.
While some are spending the day with their counter-part, some are with missing parts.
What I'm trying to say, is that things are different for many people. Nothing is the same. Maybe similar, but not congruent. The same goes for thoughts, theories, believes and principles.
A question came across my mind before and it went "do friendship need constant communication?"
My answer was a simple "no."
I believe that as long as I cherish that friend of mine, communication is not a big problem to face. However, it did hit me. What if that friend of mine does not cherish me as much as I cherish him?
That would be a gamble, I decided. I am just putting my faith and trust in them. Many people will say that I am stupid, some has already done so. I know. In fact, I know that perfectly well. I know that at the end of the day, chances of me getting hurt the most is always the highest. I still believed, anyway.
So far, my friend who I have had for more than 5 years have not been disappointing me. I am glad my "choices" we right. People say that while new things are better than old things, old friends are better than new friends. People also said that you will find your true friends during your high school years, not elementary.
Frankly speaking, I have no comments just yet. My friends that I have met in my secondary school life has been pretty much fluctuating. This is really hard to scrutinize and there are times when I am really afraid.
I do not trust people easily, thus explaining the reason why I do not really have many close friends. Thus, when i do start to trust, or when I have trusted, a person, I will expect more from that person too. Yes, I have always been pretty "picky" about my friends.
Now that is the problem that I am facing right now. It seems like my trust has been misplaced, faith forlorn and guard insubstantial.
I just hope that my decisions in the past has been right. If they are not, I suppose that it is really the time to learn from my previous mistakes. I have to have my heart ready. When it skip a beat, I will know that a new change is about to take place.
Putting all heavy tones aside, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE! Have a great day! :)
Trust (hopefully not) misplaced,
Faith (hopefully not) forlorn and,
Guards (hopefully not) insubstantial,
CCA
While many rise to the occasion where love is in the air, there are some out there who are not.
While some are spending the day with their counter-part, some are with missing parts.
What I'm trying to say, is that things are different for many people. Nothing is the same. Maybe similar, but not congruent. The same goes for thoughts, theories, believes and principles.
A question came across my mind before and it went "do friendship need constant communication?"
My answer was a simple "no."
I believe that as long as I cherish that friend of mine, communication is not a big problem to face. However, it did hit me. What if that friend of mine does not cherish me as much as I cherish him?
That would be a gamble, I decided. I am just putting my faith and trust in them. Many people will say that I am stupid, some has already done so. I know. In fact, I know that perfectly well. I know that at the end of the day, chances of me getting hurt the most is always the highest. I still believed, anyway.
So far, my friend who I have had for more than 5 years have not been disappointing me. I am glad my "choices" we right. People say that while new things are better than old things, old friends are better than new friends. People also said that you will find your true friends during your high school years, not elementary.
Frankly speaking, I have no comments just yet. My friends that I have met in my secondary school life has been pretty much fluctuating. This is really hard to scrutinize and there are times when I am really afraid.
I do not trust people easily, thus explaining the reason why I do not really have many close friends. Thus, when i do start to trust, or when I have trusted, a person, I will expect more from that person too. Yes, I have always been pretty "picky" about my friends.
Now that is the problem that I am facing right now. It seems like my trust has been misplaced, faith forlorn and guard insubstantial.
I just hope that my decisions in the past has been right. If they are not, I suppose that it is really the time to learn from my previous mistakes. I have to have my heart ready. When it skip a beat, I will know that a new change is about to take place.
Putting all heavy tones aside, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE! Have a great day! :)
Trust (hopefully not) misplaced,
Faith (hopefully not) forlorn and,
Guards (hopefully not) insubstantial,
CCA
Friday, February 13, 2009
Feet Healing
Dear blog,
My feet are healing at a pretty fast rate. Thank god I figured that I should not wear shoes and not to over-walk myself.
The SYF competition is in 2 months time. My Mandarin Oral Examination is in 3 months time. The holidays is in 5 months time and the Mandarin Papers are in 6 months time. Counting down like this really suck man.
Anyway, I am now working on my POA. I think I should be able to catch up before due date. If that is so, I can put my heart at a little ease cause at least I'll be able to secure 6 subjects for the certificate.
Hopefully, everything will be alright. I am currently really open to critiques regarding myself but am easily appalled by grotesque remarks. Hope no grotesque remarks will pass by my ears these days.
Faithfully yours,
CCA
My feet are healing at a pretty fast rate. Thank god I figured that I should not wear shoes and not to over-walk myself.
The SYF competition is in 2 months time. My Mandarin Oral Examination is in 3 months time. The holidays is in 5 months time and the Mandarin Papers are in 6 months time. Counting down like this really suck man.
Anyway, I am now working on my POA. I think I should be able to catch up before due date. If that is so, I can put my heart at a little ease cause at least I'll be able to secure 6 subjects for the certificate.
Hopefully, everything will be alright. I am currently really open to critiques regarding myself but am easily appalled by grotesque remarks. Hope no grotesque remarks will pass by my ears these days.
Faithfully yours,
CCA
Monday, February 9, 2009
Back to Silence
Hey blog...
The house back quiet again. Missing Isnu and the guys already D:
School's back!! Screwed the noon of my today. Everything shall improve and be back to normal by the end of tomorrow of the start of next week.
Oh! Heard that my mom is coming here again around the 14th. Gosh, that's like Valentine's Day! Haha! Lucks to my sister! She was planning to date her boyfriend the whole day, methinks. xD
As for me, I shall study more. :)
That's it for now~
Cheerio!
CCA
The house back quiet again. Missing Isnu and the guys already D:
School's back!! Screwed the noon of my today. Everything shall improve and be back to normal by the end of tomorrow of the start of next week.
Oh! Heard that my mom is coming here again around the 14th. Gosh, that's like Valentine's Day! Haha! Lucks to my sister! She was planning to date her boyfriend the whole day, methinks. xD
As for me, I shall study more. :)
That's it for now~
Cheerio!
CCA
Sunday, February 8, 2009
I Can Cycle!!!
Dear blog,
I have GREAT news to tell! Guess what? I am officially able to ride a bicycle!!! :D Just how awesome is that!!
Went to East Coast Park with Miranda, Siska, Isnu and Anthony today. Jessica Ang, Caroline, Wilona, Harvest and Alfreda could not make it. I am in debt to those who were there man! They taught me how to cycle till I could! And I could cycle without stopping for about 10 minutes, I think. Definitely more than 500 metres! :D awesome!!!
Yes, I am ecstatic to also figure that I am not that bad at Dance Dance Revolution too. We went to an arcade after cycling. Playing DDR is Anthony and Siska's forte, I suppose, and they were playing it. Curious, I decided to try. Well, word up! I could play the easy ones! ^^
After which, we went to eat at Seoul Garden. Totally full. I could have sworn that the amount of food I ate was equivalent to the amount a cow could have eaten. So much for losing pounds.
Lastly, we ended our day by watching The Curious Incident of Benjamin Buttons. It was a good movie. Pretty abstract but good. The end was sad, but Brad Pitt Lovers will definitely love it. He looked sooo handsome!! xD
Anyway, I should take a bath now. It's super late and my leg hurt. Plus, I can assure you that I stink as hell. Catch ya another time~! Good night now.
Happy as can be,
CCA
I have GREAT news to tell! Guess what? I am officially able to ride a bicycle!!! :D Just how awesome is that!!
Went to East Coast Park with Miranda, Siska, Isnu and Anthony today. Jessica Ang, Caroline, Wilona, Harvest and Alfreda could not make it. I am in debt to those who were there man! They taught me how to cycle till I could! And I could cycle without stopping for about 10 minutes, I think. Definitely more than 500 metres! :D awesome!!!
Yes, I am ecstatic to also figure that I am not that bad at Dance Dance Revolution too. We went to an arcade after cycling. Playing DDR is Anthony and Siska's forte, I suppose, and they were playing it. Curious, I decided to try. Well, word up! I could play the easy ones! ^^
After which, we went to eat at Seoul Garden. Totally full. I could have sworn that the amount of food I ate was equivalent to the amount a cow could have eaten. So much for losing pounds.
Lastly, we ended our day by watching The Curious Incident of Benjamin Buttons. It was a good movie. Pretty abstract but good. The end was sad, but Brad Pitt Lovers will definitely love it. He looked sooo handsome!! xD
Anyway, I should take a bath now. It's super late and my leg hurt. Plus, I can assure you that I stink as hell. Catch ya another time~! Good night now.
Happy as can be,
CCA
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Painful blisters
Hey blog...
Jill's party was alright. As expected, I did not know her friends. Thank god there were Isnu and Anthony. They introduced me to this friend of their called Lidya as well. Turned out that we could get along fine too, awesome!
Anyway, Isnu is staying over at my house for the 4 days he's in Singapore. This is the third day already, which means that he'll be flying off tomorrow. Sad. Oh, Dinika stayed over last night too. Heee
Why was she here? Hahas. The norm, dear. She went to party. It was a youth event, said she. Well, I was extremely surprised when I learnt of the people who were going there with her. Haha!
Anyway, I had been having blisters on both my ankles and they're bloody painful, I swear. So I've been dressing them up only with the resources that I had at home. Yes, my blisters burst and they weren't attended properly, causing them not to heal. Till today, they're still excruciating!
And I was supposed to go to school today. There is an exchange with Kranji Secondary School. Shucks! I could not go and told Janice this morning x.x GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH
It have to heal REALLY soon!!!
In pain,
CCA
Jill's party was alright. As expected, I did not know her friends. Thank god there were Isnu and Anthony. They introduced me to this friend of their called Lidya as well. Turned out that we could get along fine too, awesome!
Anyway, Isnu is staying over at my house for the 4 days he's in Singapore. This is the third day already, which means that he'll be flying off tomorrow. Sad. Oh, Dinika stayed over last night too. Heee
Why was she here? Hahas. The norm, dear. She went to party. It was a youth event, said she. Well, I was extremely surprised when I learnt of the people who were going there with her. Haha!
Anyway, I had been having blisters on both my ankles and they're bloody painful, I swear. So I've been dressing them up only with the resources that I had at home. Yes, my blisters burst and they weren't attended properly, causing them not to heal. Till today, they're still excruciating!
And I was supposed to go to school today. There is an exchange with Kranji Secondary School. Shucks! I could not go and told Janice this morning x.x GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH
It have to heal REALLY soon!!!
In pain,
CCA
Monday, February 2, 2009
ZIRCA
Damn blog!
Got an update from Jillian and she has made up her mind on going to ZIRCA. It was in place of former Ministry of Sound (MOS). Yeah, expects it to be awesome, but damn! Since it's new, it's probably tight on the bouncers!
Damn blog, I wonder what sort of ID they accepts. Hopefully everything will be alright. Oh, by the way, Mir is gonna ditch me. Sighs, am hoping I can have my party-partner with me. Out of luck, she doesn't know the birthday girl. =/
Wish me luck~!
Oh yes, and birthday boy Kin Weng turns 18 today! ^^ Happy Birthday to him! :)
Hopeful,
CCA
Got an update from Jillian and she has made up her mind on going to ZIRCA. It was in place of former Ministry of Sound (MOS). Yeah, expects it to be awesome, but damn! Since it's new, it's probably tight on the bouncers!
Damn blog, I wonder what sort of ID they accepts. Hopefully everything will be alright. Oh, by the way, Mir is gonna ditch me. Sighs, am hoping I can have my party-partner with me. Out of luck, she doesn't know the birthday girl. =/
Wish me luck~!
Oh yes, and birthday boy Kin Weng turns 18 today! ^^ Happy Birthday to him! :)
Hopeful,
CCA
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Had a Blast!
Dear blog,
I had a blast last night! Alfreda was with me at Kenrick's party. Was wearing my white dress-like top with a green cardigan. Was not sure on which cardigan to wear at first but decided on that after asking for my sister's opinion.
Thanks to Alfreda and my priceless skills in balloon sculpturing, pumping and tying of balloon ends, we helped my poor sister who was in need of help! :D
Ate at Il Lido Italian Restaurant. Met Kenrick's friends. They're really nice :) The food was scrumptious too. The dessert was a tad too much, though; in the sense that it was too sweet - consisting of a piece of mud pie, mud cupcake and coconut ice-cream.
Back at the Villa, we partied till dawn. By the way, Alfreda and my "priceless skills" in balloon sculpturing was totally brushed aside when Justin, a friend of Kenrick's, started sculpturing some. He was good at it, really good.
We were also exposed to their other exquisite talents. Justin and JJ can sing extremely well. They were really wonderful and JJ danced to Beyonce's Single Lady too. He could really move his ass like Beyonce man! Haha!
Alfreda and I also figured that the two of us has the same level of alcohol tolerence. XD I found myself a new awesome party-partner. Just how much more awesome can this get? :)
Sign off,
CCA.
I had a blast last night! Alfreda was with me at Kenrick's party. Was wearing my white dress-like top with a green cardigan. Was not sure on which cardigan to wear at first but decided on that after asking for my sister's opinion.
Thanks to Alfreda and my priceless skills in balloon sculpturing, pumping and tying of balloon ends, we helped my poor sister who was in need of help! :D
Ate at Il Lido Italian Restaurant. Met Kenrick's friends. They're really nice :) The food was scrumptious too. The dessert was a tad too much, though; in the sense that it was too sweet - consisting of a piece of mud pie, mud cupcake and coconut ice-cream.
Back at the Villa, we partied till dawn. By the way, Alfreda and my "priceless skills" in balloon sculpturing was totally brushed aside when Justin, a friend of Kenrick's, started sculpturing some. He was good at it, really good.
We were also exposed to their other exquisite talents. Justin and JJ can sing extremely well. They were really wonderful and JJ danced to Beyonce's Single Lady too. He could really move his ass like Beyonce man! Haha!
Alfreda and I also figured that the two of us has the same level of alcohol tolerence. XD I found myself a new awesome party-partner. Just how much more awesome can this get? :)
Sign off,
CCA.
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