CCA in 2009!

Evolve

2009-12-23T00:35:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

Hey ho! The holidays are here! Results will be out in a months time or so. I am sooo not looking forward to it!! Haha oh wells! Wonder if I'll cry on that =\ haha!

Oh and I'm currently on my sister's iTouch, so there's no colour to this post. Oh well, better to have a plain-coloured post than no post at all ^^

So, about the title "Evolve". It is the place where I'm currently working at. Or internshiping. It's a mixed martial arts academy and I am very proud of being part of the team! I've learnt quite a lot just the past few weeks alone! Oh, I started on the first of December, by the way. Heee awesome right!! It gets better cause I know that I've DEFINITELY not wasted my holiday like any other teenagers! =D

Plus, I get to meet the coolest people too! ^^ I mean, seriously, how many people In this world get to meet the Legendary Muay Thai fighter every single day as up close as me?! Especially without being another big name myself! And how many times do you get to work with world champions and well respected gyms every single day!? The answer is: rarely! And guess what! I AM one pf those rare cases!!! WOO HOO! VIVA LA VIDA BABY!!

Okay, those are the ups part of life. Here comes the down part.

Well, my parents are not happy about my work. Let me clear some things first. My mom was the one who initially asked me to work as an intern. I initially wanted to go to Indinesia. Come on! All my friends are there, and they've been beckoning me to go back and have a reunion with them! My heart and soul seriously wants to fly there and enjoy they're company! Really miss them loads! Especially Disa! It's been AGES since the last time I saw her!!

But anyways, I went for the job interview and I told myself that I should let fate decide. If I pass the interview, then MAYBE I was meant to take up this job. After all, it will be a very good stepping stone for me since I was very sad about getting into business.

True enough, I thought that getting Evolve was a good decision made. It actually made me think twice about business and I am starting to get convinced that business may not be all that bad after all!

Even better, my boss just asked me if I was gonna work at Evolve on a part-time basis. Obviously, I was thrilled to hear the offer. Now here comes the bad news. I am having yet another parents problem.

Now they are telling me that they do not like me working and that they want me to quit with immediate effect. Seriously? I think that this is SO ridiculous! What was that all about?!

I mean, by working hours are fine. I haven't been reaching home late! And now telling me to stop because I "have been working until 12midnight every single day". EXCUSE ME!

12 midnight?! Every single day?! Are you kidding me?! That's the time I get into bed! And I'm usually home before 10! Public transport! Dude, if you want me to reach home before 9, sure thing! I'll cab home every single night! No problem! Just an extra 6 dollars every night! what's more, if I HAVE been reaching home THAT late, how do you explain the days when I go gymming?! You mean I was just running and sweating in my dreams? Wow! What a very surreal dream I have! Good job, Cindy! Great imagination! Give yourself a pat on your back!

Ha-ha! Very funny! Not!

Oh, but one thing made me surprised today. I came home with scoldings welcoming me warmly in the face. My mom was furious, my dad no better. They were unhappy that I came home late tonight. Yes I did, this time around a few minutes before midnight. What happened was that I went to The Cathay to buy my secret receiver a present for tomorrow's Secret Santa event. A Christmas thing we, staff, are gonna have. So I thought, hey, why don't I meet Monji then? And I can go home together with her!

So I was with her and my mom knows it. She knows it damn well! She was texting with me the whole time, dawg! And then I told her that I was gonna eat supper with my sister too. Later, I receive a text from saying that we should go home soon cause dad was gonna get angry. But the whole time, she sounded really cool about us being together!

Never did I imagine that we were gonna get so screwed when we get home! Scolded like we've just committed some felony, I tell ya! It was one hell of a ride! And I asked mom why she didn't tell me that they were unhappy. I received no answer. Instead, she instantly raised so that my dad could hear her and told him that I had just BLAMED her for not telling me that I was supposed to cone home when she, apparently as said by her, had done so!

Hah! Perfect! So everything's my fault again! And let's add a cherry to that beautiful cake! My dad has been buying ALL her stories ad of late! And I simply DO NOT understand why!!! This us frustrating!! To the max!!

Oh, and what did she tell mr, really? "come home quickly or you're get scoldings." quickly. Yeah, sure! We came home quickly! Straight after we were done woth our food! So then, it wasn't quick enough for you? There was no indication regarding speed, limit, timebpr whatsoever! Bless you, my child!

Okay, so to the thing that surprised me. Well, I was scolded real badly but I was surprisingly still her calm! Very. I did raise my voice at all. My voice did not even increase in volume at all! I mean, I HAVE been am incredibily patient person. But the old me would have at least increased my volume by a bit. But this time around, I was totally at peace.

It's like my heartache towards my mom seemed to have reached it's limits. So much so that the pain was not as painful anymore. It's as though I've an immunization against it now. Whereas for my beloved dad, well, I guess I was just so incredulously disappointed in whatever he was telling me. I guess I was expecting him to be able to understand me more. Guess I was wrong.

So from my analysis, I must have been trying to fathom the logic behind the words that he said. That's why I was able to keep my cool throughout the whole episode. Deduction: it is almost unfathomable.

But just wait and see. Things should get better. At least I hope they would!

It's me signing off,
CCA!

Somewhere Along The Line

2009-11-28T22:11:00.005+08:00

Dear blog,

Nah, I'm not that angry no more. The angst is gone. I know, sometimes it comes and goes. It's like a phase, a wave, a period of sudden rush. It is not something uncontrolable, I know. It's just that, I let myself indulge in it. It is not an indulgence to begin with, but somehow deep down, I guess I just did not want to stop, or control, it. It's like I just wanna let it go for good, which by the way, I think is a pretty good choice ^^ It is better to let it go, and let it run with the wind, then to bottle it up and supress it within, right?

Anyway, I realise that I've let go of a lot of things within this frame of time. LOADS of things! So many!

First of all, let me re-inforce my interest in the entertainment world. I know I am not pretty or talented, but I've always thought that they are all workable. I've always wanted to go to an Arts College, or something like that, or at least, the mass comm course. It was the least I could do with my life. Guess what? I blew it! I am now in business! The moment I said business, I could feel my heart drop. My heart dropped to the pit of my stomach. No, it went further down. It felt as though it had dropped to the ground. I was so sad and I felt as though a part of me was torn out.

Then, I gathered myself and thought about it again. Maybe it isn't all that bad. I mean, come on! Think about it. I am not smart, either! What made me think that I would be able to get into the course in the first place? They'll need 10 pointers and below! I aint no 10 pointer! It has been a beautiful dream that I carved out, in place of the reality where I know my dreams will never come true. I even got myself a job in order to re-ensure myself.

Yet, every now and then, I'll have supportive friends who tell me that I should pursure my dream. My sisters started praising me for my writing skills too, which by the way, isn't polished at all. Knowing that, I am sure that I won't be able to survive in the arts world. Look at the many talented people! But again, you'll never know until you try, right?

So, then, I thought I pretty much convinced myself that I won't do good in it anyways, and was on the verge of accepting my fate. Reality wins over dream, I thought. Right at that point of time, I was told that nothing is impossible.

So what now? I am just so lost! I am just.. In need of directions. But again, the directions are not for others to show. It's for you to stir yourself! The wheel is in your hands, and no others.

Somewhere along the line, I know that business isn't the path meant for me.
Somewhere along the line, I know that I was meant for something greater than this.
Somewhere along the line, I know that if I continue on in this path, I may still be successful.
Somewhere along the line, I know that I may not be able to make it in arts.
Somewhere along the line, I know that I can't sing nor act.
Somewhere along the line, I know that I can always give them a shot and be pleased with myself.
Somewhere along the line.. I am lost.
I need to find a way out. If only there is an EXIT door on this forked road.

CCA.

I have a BLOODY rich mom.

2009-11-22T13:35:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

First of all, if you think that this is a good news, you're wrong. Secondly, I didn't mean that literally, I'm being sarcastic. Thirdly, she's rich, I'm poor.

Fuck this shit! I'm always in this bloody asss situation. When can I get out of here? FAST!

Throw all the things away. I don't a shit no more. I swear I'm gonna be successful in the future. In any means possible. I know that my dreams have shattered the moment I said "business". So now that I'm in the business stream, I just gotta fuck my way through it. Somehow, one way or another, I shall make it there. Make loads of money, even if I become a fucking moron or a fucking stupid ass businesswoman. Then when I have all that money, I shall start donating and doing some humanitarian things to cover this all up.

For now, Fuck all those rich people. Fuck those who use their money like water. Fuck those who thinks that money is all that counts. Fuck you, if you think that everything can just be thrown away, valuable or invaluable.

My mom is fucking rich.
CCA

The End of O Levels!

2009-11-13T22:44:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

Hey!! The Os are finally over!! FINALLY. It's such a big relieve! ^^

Anyway, I had written an entry before this on Caroline's Mac Book. However, it died on me. So it should be somewhere in the draft or it might be lost forever. Oh wells, it was about the O levels ending, yeah, still had the MCQ paper to go at that point of time! ^^

OH!! I FOUND IT!! YEYYY Ok, be right back! Now you can read the post down there :D

Alright! I'm back! And yey! You can watch the video now! ^^ Look for the English version, though! Really love it to the core! :D Caroline is in LOVE with Automatic! Hahaha!

Anyway, guess what! I just had a hair trim today! :D Hehe about time! Took such a loooonnngg time!!! Now it's neater!! ^^ Yeyy!! :D

Oh, and I am SO TOTALLY hooked into The Tokio Hotel game!! You should try it too! The Tokio Hotel Game that's the link :D Finished with level one now!! ^^ Getting ready to go to Level 2! WOOTZ! and I am proudly player number 2930 to finish the game!! YEY ME!! :D

Hehe, alright. Shall end here! Oh! I went out with the guys too yesterday! Have been a long time too! Gosh, it's been a long time for many things! Ah, and I met Joe too! Whoooooo LOOOONG time!

Ah, Shawn is sick. Hope he gets well soon! And I have a vibe that tells me that I'm gonna be a smoker in the future. I think I've stated this before, but I'm just gonna state it again. I think that it must in me; my nature, maybe. Perhaps I'm going against myself right now! I have the urge to pierce my tongue too! LOL hahah I know! It's crazy, right? I mean, I am so bloody scared of piercings! Yet, here I am, wanting to pierce my tongue! Out of all the places on our body!

And the reason why I brought this up is because of the fact that I think I had a vision a few days ago. In it, I am leaning against a wall, waiting for somebody. I have a Blackberry in one hand, and a cigarrete in another. Yeah, I've been smoking it.

Of course, since I've sort of "know" about this right now, it'll be relatively easier for me to avoid that future, no? But then again, in changing it, there's bound to be a consequence. And I have no idea what that might be! Will I be an alcoholic? Well, I strongly do not think so. But what if I started trying joints and stuff? Sigh, I guess I'll never know till that time comes.

OH! OR MAYBE, I have the urge to pierce now because I'm not smoking! Gee, that's not so bad, right? Hehe I hope so! :D Then we'll see of my future ^^ Just hope that it's a good one!

Speaking of the future, I've been in this bloody dilemma for the LONGEST time! I think it's about time for me to move forward and disentangle myself from it! It is the choice between pursuing arts, or not.

Shall drop this subject for the moment. Shall end this entry here! End it on a good note! :) Good night!! ^^

Don't Jump!!!
CCA.

MCQ Left

2009-11-10T12:45:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

Hey! The tough papers are over, so it kinda feels as though the Os are over. Not yet, though. I still have the MCQs to conquer. My brain's already shutting down on its own. Bad bad! Can't seem to get anything in my head these past few days. Yep, I've been doing MCQ questions. Can't seem to understand why I get the physics questions correct! Yes, I got them correct, ironically.

Anyway, Joel may be getting a piercing. Haha!

Oh, thanks to Caroline, now I'm kinda in love with Tokio Hotel again! Was in love with them at the beginning of the year too, just like 30 Seconds to Mars!

Haha! The thing is, at the beginning of the year, I was in love with Tokio Hotel first (well, yeah, I got to know them first anyways, haha! When Bill, the frontman, still had that bombastic hairstyle! Totally caught my attention!), then was in love with 30 Seconds to Mars.

Right now, at the end of the year, was pretty much in love with 30 Seconds to Mars again, because I was watching their From Yesterday MV (remember? XD Haha!) and now Tokio Hotel!! :D Haha

Yeah, and for Tokio Hotel, it's pretty much because of Don't Jump and the MV too xD Hahaha I wonder why I always go back to old hits, hehe. Oh! I was crazy over "Scream" at the start of the year too, though. Not really into it right now. Anyway, here's the MV! :D

Okay, that was definitely NOT the best quality and it's the German version. Hehe The English version must have been soooo populer to the point that ALL the embeddings of the English Version vids are disabled! Haha Okay, that's it for now! Shall go off! ^^

Enjoy the vid! :)
CCA.

Screwed Practical

2009-10-24T12:44:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

Nope. Not kidding.

I was doing my chem experiment. It was TOTALLY boring. You gotta burn this solid for a super duper long time, and to make it worse, I did the experiment TWICE! Can u imagine how BORED I was? So I turned my head around, yeah it's a bad habit. But it ain't as though I'm cheating!

Anyway, the invijulator came around and told me to stop talking, and I aint talking! She took down my serial number anyways and was telling my teacher that I was gonna be reported.

Now here's the deal, if she really did report it, I'll be deemed a cheater. So I'll either get a point taken off, OR be flunked straight away! YEY ME! Jesus Christ!

However, there is a slight chance that all will be well. About 10%? Statistic's not helping right now. Thanks a lot.

Logging off,
CCA.

Home Is Fucked.

2009-10-20T14:35:00.000+08:00

Dear blog,

No, not the good fuck. The bad fuck.

Fucking off,
CCA.

O Level in 3 days!!

2009-10-19T18:30:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

I'm currently at Caroline's house. She's having tuition and I'm gonna play her Mac for about 15 minutes before joining her. Haha!

Oh! And it's Phyone's birthday today~! HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHYONE!! ^^ Hehehe hope your wishes come true!! :D heeeee!

Ahh O level starts in 3 days time, and I have no idea what time my shift is. I am s screwed. What should I do?? Call and ask a friend, silly. Okay, I just wanna state that anyway. Just cause. Haha!

Anyway, been with Rita and Taajinder loads lately thanks to Vera. Turns out that they're pretty nice people. Just that Rita has gotten himself some bad rep, I guess. I don't know the real deal. Maybe I won't be able to know, or maybe I will. Hah. Whatever it is, I do know one thing, he is somewhat like me. We're kinda different in school and outside school. =)

Oh, and I have a mouth of a jinx. I mean, almost everything that I said have come true. One way or another. Maybe I had it coming? Some people say that it's just mere coincidence. I wonder why are there so many coincidences in my life. Hah. Oh, and I thought it's always said that coincidences happen for a reason! HAH!

Or, maybe, it's because of my sixth sense. Hmm.. However, it hasn't been strong lately. And I haven't been able to see things. Ahh.. To thing about it, though I am no longer a clairvoyance, my vibes and gut feelings have been strong. So maybe it has been converted to feelings. Or vibes, or whatever you call it. And I shall find the word for it and call myself that. Haha!

Oh yes, and I am trying to find out about the rabbit spirit. Anyone heard of it? A body of a human, face of a rabbit, bloody red eyes, goddam long tongues.

Ahh.. And Quan's FB and Email account have just gotten hacked. No shit.

Signing off,
CCA

It's Monday Tomorrow.

2009-10-12T00:15:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

Yes, I know it's Monday, that's all. Nothing all that special. However, it marks a new week. Which means that i've lost my wallet a day longer. I'm also 1 week nearer to O levels. How screwed can it be, right? I'm supposed to concentrate fully on my studies, yet here I am - fretting over my lost wallet.

The next two days are supposed to be holidays. Well, marking days, actually. Anyhow, we were excused from school. Joy. Not.

I am still going to school anyways! :) See! I'm so hardworking! You better be proud of me! ^^ Hehe I sure am pretty proud of myself these days. I've actually touched my books, no kidding!

I am also going to the ICA Building tomorrow to remake my ID card. Really sad. Hopefully tomorrow will be a great day! Hopefully I'll be able to wake up early too! ^^ Hehe.

Oh, and something interesting to tell. I just chanced upon 30 Seconds to Mars' full length video of From Yesterday. Yeah, I know. I AM SO SLOW. RIGHT!!! I didn't know they actually had a full-length video of it o.o And I thought it was pretty cool! =) Haha

Ahh.. I'm falling heads over heels for them again! Haha check the vid out! =)

Oh, and ironically, I really did receive a Guess wallet today. How very ironic.

Love,
CCA.

Cost to be Paid

2009-10-10T22:04:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

I guess God is fair. I think he wants me to have a new wallet. I've been craving for one for the longest time. So maybe he intended for me to have one. It's just that, he wants me to have it the normal way. Ya know, wait, buy and replace.

Instead, I lost mine and thus he decided to.. Punish me for my carelessness. It's fair, I guess. I lost my wallet and all the important documentations inside it, but the credit card was not used at all. A nice person has really gotten hold of it :) Maybe, she had taken the money inside and discarded my wallet.

However, it does not mean that I have nothing to lose. Well, obviously I lost all of those things mentioned, but I meant the amount it'll cost me to remake all those cards. Not to mention, I still want to have my wallet back too. =/

Anyway, if I were to calculate the amount, it'll be as follows:

POSB ATM: S$ 5.00
ANZ: RP 50,000.
ID: S$100.00 (This gave me the GREATEST SHOCK!)
House key: about S$ 3.00? (Not to mention, I haven't let mom in on this one! I will be skinned ALIVE!)
Entrance Scan Card: S$20.00-30.00
Ez-Link Card: S$20.00?

Oh God! LOOK AT THAT!! I am sooo screwed! I did not expect the ID replacement would be SO expensive too!! Golly. Well, it IS after all a VERY important document.. So =/ Still, it's a lil too expensive though T_T

Okay, gotta remind myself that it's better than having my ANZ used. Sighs. Anyway, those items total up to $164.50!! OH MY GOSH! THAT IS ENOUGH TO BUY ME AT LEAST A GUESS WALLET OR SOMETHING!! T_T Cindy you dufus!!

Hikz. I guess I'll just have to say bye-bye to everything. E VE RY THING. I need consolation.

Signs off,
CCA.

Lost Wallet

2009-10-09T16:51:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

God, oh God, oh God, please help me out!

It's been a year since the last time I've lost anything as important as my wallet and I had hoped not to lose anything this year! I do not wish to lose something every single year! That is going to be so screwed up! I can't expect to lose something important regularly!

God, dear God, dear God, please help me out!

I really really really need it. I need it, always. And I really can't afford to lose it. Not now, not ever. I am so careless! I was so impulsed! I am very upset.

God, oh God, oh God, to you I cry to.

I believe a really nice person must have chanced upon it. I believe she must have been really busy, that is all. I believe in you. I believe I'll be able to thank that someone from the bottom of my heart, and thank you for sending and bringing her to me. I believe that everything is going to be alright. Please be.

God, dear God, dear God, thank you very much.

For you've always listened to my prayers and aid me when I'm in need. And here I am again, in need for your help.

CCA.

I Accept People, People Don't Accept me.

2009-09-08T09:51:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

Hey! I miss you so. This is a really mad world, isn't it?

Seriously, many things can happen within a month. Yet, some months are so uneventful, you can doze off. One good news to share first - I scored really well for TOEFL! =D 104/120! ^o^ I'm as happy as a lark! Thought I was going to waste money and score really badly for it.

Anyway, the TOEFL is over now! Time to move on. There are many other storms to weather. For once, I have the prelims coming up. This week I am having my holiday. I thought it was going to be wonderful. Expected myself to wake early every morning, which I did, have some fun and do some studying.

AGAIN, thanks to the oh-so-marvellous-almighty-QUEEN, EVERY THING is ruined. Just had to RUIN my mood. That's ALL she can do. Just can't be happy for me. No, of course not! She's jealous. Just can't live with me in harmony. No, of course not. I'm a child from hell. Will I go to heaven when it's my time to leave? I wonder.

I really do believe in heaven and hell. All I ever wanted to do was to live a peaceful life. Which is why I never yearned for the unneccessary excessively. Yeah, I do sometimes, but if I don't get it, then I don't! It's as simple as that.

This life of ours is so simple. Think of everything in a picture. It is so neatly laid out in front of you. All you have to do is to clear your mind and look at it. All of a sudden, you'll get what I mean. All the problems that you have, they are so tiny! Just open your mouth, and talk things out. Everything will be solved in no time.

Oh! But guess what? Of course there are always all these FACTORS that makes things that MUCH more difficult! FACTORS like the people whom you're speaking to. You try to talk nicely and in return, you get a good smack of screaming in your face. You try to talk nicely, and in return, they interpret your intentions negatively. You TALK to them nicely, and in return, everything is blamed onto you. It is, after all, your fault!

So why must simple things be made complex? I can never understand this concept of life. It drives the world mad, when it was initially serene and tranquil. Why go to the extend of killing your own mankind just for the sake of your selfish fetish?

I had a rough day yesterday. Today, a fortune cookie made my day. It said "Your Everlasting Patience Will Be Rewarded Sooner or Later." Thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I cannot thank you enough.

It really made my day. Now I know that PATIENCE is really the key. The patience that I am slowly losing control of. The patience that I once controlled so well because my world hadn't gone mad. The patience that is now the source of my misery too, because people are just taking it for granted, and when I really lose my temper, they started questioning me! "What happened to you? You used to be so patient!" "What's gotten into you! You were never like this in the past! You used to be so pleasant!"

Well, I think I have the perfect answer for that: Oh, fuck you!

I've really been trying my best and that fortune cookie really gave me a new light. PATIENCE. That's it, boy! That's all you need! Problems will be solved! No problems! Free! What more can I ask for?

So, I shall just lower myself to the level of the ground. STEP on my pride like a pile of dirt on the street. KILL myself for the sake of peace and tranquility. That is what I'm going to do. The house which I once knew as my sanctuary is gone. The house which used to be my safe harbour is no longer here.

The mad world out there which has always been the place where I put my mask on is still there intact. So what really happened? The mad world is still mad, but the house within is no longer peaceful. Now both places are mad and I am forced to put on a mask in both places. What has really happened here? I do not know. If by a mask I am to survive, then by a mask I shall be alive.

Logging off,
CCA.

August is Here!

2009-08-25T00:31:00.002+08:00

Hi blog!

Glad to know that Blogger ain't giving me anymore trouble! ^^ My account is working totally fine! =]

Anyways, just wanna say that Stephanie came to SG few days ago. Sadly, I didn't get to meet her =( was really looking forward to her arrival. Oh well, tough luck!

So, what have been on my mind lately? I've been thinking of school. Lots of things about school. What school am I getting into? What faculty am I gonna major in? Where am I gonna be living? Many choices are available. However, it'll depend on my ability too. If I get good results, I'll definitely have no problem getting myself a place.

So, I've contemplated on whether I should stay in Singapore or to leave for USA. If I stay in Singapore, I have 3 choices. 1)Go to polythecnic, 2)Go to a private school or 3)Enter an international school. I've been debating with my mom about this for a pretty long time now. I've always thought that going to a polythecnic is a pretty good choice. I never really wanted to go to a private school because the idea of taking foundation turned me off. Whereas for international school, well, I don't mind it. However, it's school fees is super high!

I've been in a deep dilemma about this. Not to mention the fourth option where I'll go to USA and get into a college there. Thankfully, I found a new information that will finally lead me to an anwer just hours ago.

I was on a private school's website. The one that was supposed to offer me foundation - Insworld. They happen to not only offer foundation, but also A Level cert! And pre-med cert if you're getting into that line. Anyway, the cert is from London, not Cambridge, so it's supposed to be easier. Not to mention, it will serve the same purpose as Cambridge's cert! To make it even better, it can be done withing 12-18 months! That's one and a half years! And I'm gonna be a proud owner of an A level cert and I'll be on my way to a university! A good one, of course!

Whoo! So excited now! Just the thought of it thrills me! I'm hardly considering the other options now! ^^ It's as though I've found the perfect path for me! =]

But again, we'll see how it goes. It's gonna suck REALLY badly if I were to do badly for this A level and my TOEFL =(

OH! GOOD NEWS EVERYONE!! I DID WELL FOR MY MOTHER TONGUE (CHINESE) O LEVEL!! I ATTAINED B3!! WITH DISTINCTION FOR ORAL! WHOO HOO!! HOW AWESOME IS THAT MAN!! =D HAHA!

Okay, yeah. That'll be all for now! XD Haha! Good night everyone!

Sign off,
CCA

Finally Back Up!

2009-08-05T17:21:00.001+08:00

Dear blog,

Yes, I'm pretty much guilty for "ditching" for about a month now. I'm sorry. Didn't mean that on purpose. You still shouldn't bombard me with problems the moment I came back! =/

Anyways, I have not been allowed online much, thus the reason why I have been missing. So during that time, I'm still in that time by the way, I sort of kept a diary. It was not really successful, actually. Out of the 30 plus days, I managed to write in 2 entries only. Many have been lost. I guess I'll try to recall them, but not now.

Just a little update on the recent going-ons! I went to $ing Dollar! with Caroline and Ce Bebek! =D It was hilarious! Lots of local jokes inserted though, so you may not understand them fully - like me. Well, if you're looking for an entertainment, you may wanna go for it. If you're looking for art, nah.. That's not for ya.

Oh, and Eric has arrived and I think I should be meeting him later on with Miranda. Oh, and I just had an immunisation. My left arm is still pretty painful right now. My right arm is fine. Yeah, I had two injections. Oh, and I've sprained my ankle. It's been hurt for three weeks now. =(

Alright, I shall go off now! =]

TTYL,
CCA

Blogshop

2009-06-15T22:22:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

Something interesting's coming up! I hope this will really happen. Well, my sister and I have planned to start a blogshop! It's not up and running yet, though. It's still in the editing, trial-and-error process.

Hopefully we'll get some support! And hopefully it'll do good business too! =] Will probably be selling clothes and that kinda stuff. So excited! =]

I'll update again when it's done ya! ^^

And I hope that I'll do well for my examinations. I really hope I will. This is such a nerve-wrecking feeling. Oh, by the way, I am already preparing myself to accept reality. There's a really high chance that I'll be staying in Singapore. I really am not hoping high anymore.

I have got to live with a mind of wisdom and a heart of steel. For what the present and future hold, I know not.

Signing off,
CCA.

Mp3-Codes

2009-06-03T20:14:00.002+08:00

Hey blog!

Awesome news to tell now! =D

I know, it's as though I'm spamming my own blog. Shucks! But oh gosh, good news are not meant to be kept in! They're meant to be spread! Yey!

So, the awesome news is that, I've found a replacement for Imeem! Woo hoo! Go me! =D I've got the song from Mp3-codes I am so happy right now! =] Heheh! Thank you Mp3-Codes! You made my day! ^^Or should I say, you made my blog! =D Heeeee

Cheers!
CCA.

Imeem

2009-06-03T19:55:00.003+08:00

Hey again!

Okay, I know that this is really random, but I gotta post this up! This is so annoying! And I do hope that I won't get into trouble for this.

ANYWAY. Point is, Imeem is turning into such a biatch! My god! I can't use the songs for this blog no more! Boooooo! =[

Used to love Imeem loads! But oh wells, they just proved themselves wrong! Unless I can fix this, they are giving me a bad impression about them! =P Haha!

P.S. I am such a bitch, right! I know! XD Sorry!

Ciao!
CCA.

I Wanna Go to School!

2009-06-03T19:38:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

Yes, blog! It's one of those times when I actually really really wanna go to school! But good news is, I am coping better at home. The urge to runaway and to flee this place had decreased and is on the verge to cease. Am I glad, or am I glad!

Well, yes. That was the major reason I was so enthusiastic about going to school. I felt joy. I found serenity in it, and peace. Yep, just a few weeks ago, life was a bitch. Today, life is not such a bitch! Cause I've found my place, though there are some parts that turns me off still.

Oh, by the way. I am so glad too! I've been telling Joe and Shawn about how talented the two of them can really be and how nice their voices sound. They've been in denial for the past years, okay, they weren't really in denial, but they refused to admit it. I bet they were just trying to eat the humble pie. Okay, fine, maybe Shawn still sounded a lil off last year, but that's majorly because of the fact that he did not sing properly!

Anyway, the thing is, the duo finally had the urge to perform, I suppose. And Shawn did it! He went on to perform on a Lunch-Time Concert. This mini concert that my school holds every now and then. I wasn't there, sadly, because I was having fever. It happened last Monday when I was having my high fever.

Thankfully, I managed to watch a video of it!!! Three cheers for Agnes-su for the marvellous fantabulous recording! ^^ Although, I hope that she had recorded the whole thing, but the footage she had was enough to thrill me! ^^

Well, another thing is that, I heard that Mr Lim had asked the two of them to record! Although for something I'm not sure about, but still! It's interesting! ^^ Oh, I heard this from Shawn himself, by the way. I'm so excited! Haha! Can't believe I'm so excited for the two of them right now! I don't even think they're as excited as I am right now! I'm so glad they're finally realising their talent! ^^ GOOD JOB, SHAWN! HA!

Ah, and another good news. Well, it's pretty sad too, actually. Remember the time when I told you that I'd screwed my English paper? Yes, I was very sure, almost positive! That's because I know of the stupid mistakes that I had done and the crappy story-line that I had for my composition.

You see, I got my scripts back and I was able to check them. One word: horrendous! Yes, I know, I have used this word so many times! And I am sorry about that! But it's true! All the tenses error, all the grammer mistakes! All the.. Oh my God. Just horrendous, I tell you!

But amazingly, miraculously, I still made it! I actually passed my English! Whoo! Okay, it's nothing to really rejoice about, actually, because I got only a B3. It's sad, isn't it? I am sure that I could've gotten an A2 at least!

So, there you have it! Good news that I managed a B3, but still a bad news cause I could have gotten BETTER! ARGH! GRRRR.

Okay, then. That's it for now! And let me say this one more time, for the last time!: I wanna go to school! ^^

Signing off,
CCA. =]

I'm Back From the Pits of Fever!

2009-05-30T22:45:00.001+08:00

Dear blog,

Yep! Just as the title has offered! I'm back! So my highest temperature was 40 and was down for good 4 days!

Still, situations have not changed and I am still in a position whereby life is not so much of a fun. It is getting really really horrible, in fact.

How horrible? You have no idea. I think this is one of the worst it can ever get. Wrong. I think this is the worst feelings I've ever gotten in my whole entire life so far. The feeling is that.. I just wanna run away. I just wanna run away from all of these. I just wanna get out! Out there! Not in here!

Have you ever gotten that feeling before? Like there's nothing to hold you back anymore? Like everything there is here is calling out to you to get on your feet and just go! Go! Sprint! Somewhere! Anywhere! Just.. Anywhere, at all!

I've never ever thought of running this bad before. And in running, I mean leaving things behind, like they don't matter anymore. Run till you see the dawn of tomorrow!

And then somehow having something out there that stops you on your track. Stop, short. Panting and maybe running out of breath, but somehow you know that there is no need to run no more.

Then you'll regain your posture and you'll straighten up, breathing in the fresh air. Your arms spread out wide, the breeze brushes past you. The wind in your face. There, in your face, a beautiful view and you're ready for a brand new start.

A start that's fresh where you know you're going to be okay. Nothing holds you back no more. All you gotta do now is just to turn around, and walk slowly. Walk towards that open path which you know with an unwavering certainty will lead you to a greater destination.

The sun rises from the East and you're scared no more. You're safe. You're not in the dark anymore. You'll be there. The place you know you should be and will be in no time.

I'm Officially Sick!

2009-05-24T20:49:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

I had a vibe that my anti-body was failing ever since Wednesday, when I felt totally cold in the Speech & Drama Room. If you should know, I'm cold-durable. Not much of a heat fan. Thus, that was most certainly weird.

I did not feel any better the next few days. Well, I guess I wasn't feeling as cold, but nonetheless, I was feeling cold. Then came Saturday. I had goosebumps and had a feeling that I was not getting any better. In fact, I sort of felt feverish. I was pretty sure that I had a fever.

I asked the people I was out with whether my forehead was hotter than usual. And as usual, my physique always fails to convey the message that "Cindy is sick". I went home that night, positive of the situation that I'm in and checked my temperature. True enough, I was at 38.8 Degrees!

Then my temperature rises to 39.1 and it actually got better this afternoon to 37.7. It even decreased further to 37.3. Pretty amazed at how fast my fever is dropping. Sadly, it was all but a fake. My temperature rised again to 39.0 and it's now at 38.8 again.

Hope I'll get well soon! Oh, I was at Joel's yesterday. With Quan and Alfreda. Tiffany came over just now and she totally saw my unglam image! Yikes! Haha! And Caroline told me to go see a doctor and maybe get myself isolated. My parents thought otherwise. They were sure that my whole family will get checked too.

We'll see how it goes. If things don't get any better, I'll probably go for a check-up tomorrow and pass on school. Speaking of school, I've not touched a single one of the assignment given! Sheit!

Loving,
CCA.

After Mid-Years

2009-05-21T21:43:00.010+08:00

Dear blog,

What the fuck, boy! I failed all my papers, I am living in a super sad life and I'm having my Mother Tongue O in 2 weeks time! How much more fucked up can things get? Oh, add this on: I've just been lied to by my parents. Oh! To make it even better, now I'm the fucking black sheep of the family. Totally great! I'm the fucking devil right now.

Yes, son. I swear I have deep shit going around in my house. Oh, and yeah, some people around me are just making things worse for me, thanks! A lot.

Why can't things be simpler than this? Might as well turn into some clairvoyance or something and get rid of everything else! Or even better, be a nun! Get rid of everything, get rid of family, get rid of friends and every human needs!

So fucked up right now. I don't wanna come home! Just wanna go somewhere out there and fucking cool myself down first. This house ain't a house man! This house is a mess! This house is a big mess!

I wish I can go out there, find some freaking job. Earn some cash, get some tuition, on my own. There is so freaking help in this house. I am in need of help! As if this house will help! I'll be scolded when I look for help!And there's even some good-for-nothing people! And here I am blamed for every single lil fucking thing.And people are saying "Oh Cin! You're the favourite!" Yeah, sure. You're so fucking right! So fucking favoured to the point that people are expecting things that are ridiculous and extremely laughable. Guess what? I am a deity, dude! I was exiled to Earth! Joy!
There you have it! My life and I. Life can really be such a bitch sometimes! Cheers! Joy to me!

Fucking off,
CCA.

Screwed Up English Paper

2009-05-02T01:37:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

Well, sadly, I have screwed up my English paper. It was a really bad experience, I do not want to experience it again. I can almost see what's going to happen in the near future. We're gonna have re-banding too. I am so totally not excited about it!

Anyway, I went over to Dinika's today. Ate some pizzas that her mom made. It was really good! Oh, and Dinika isn't really doing all that well now. Still not yet. I wonder how long it'll take for her to settle down. He life is such a roller coaster! With lots of downfalls, at that.

Recently, she's been with Joel and the two of them get along fine. I'm glad to hear that, I really am. Although, truthfully, I did get jealous, and am still, a tad, it really is better, I feel. I am glad that there is someone who can see his real value in school, at long last. I am glad that there is somebody who I can trust to look after her now too. The two of them are helping each other out, I guess. Doubles my happiness. :)

Met Joe, Quan and Ogaki for less than a minute just now. I've been trying to use my time to the fullest these days. Went back to rush for my tuition. I hope I did not stood up on them, especially not on Joe again. I missed them so.

But till the exams are over, I'll have to get rid of other things and do my best in focusing on my subjects. I hope I can really do that. I really need help right now. I am in such a deep shit! Please pray for me, dear blog.

Signing off,
CCA.

THE Mid Year Examinations

2009-04-29T23:27:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

The examinations are no longer around the corner. They are already here! I can't believe it! I was still struggling to keep up with life and here I am facing one of the challenges face-to-face. There is hardly any time to do anything anymore. I can't turn back too.

Wishing everyone all the best and may the lady of luck be with everyone. Including me, of course. I hope everyone will do well and I hope that I will do great!

I shall sleep now and I shall have faith and trust in myself.

Good night!
CCA

Something Wrong

2009-04-28T22:52:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

This is bad news. Something is really wrong with me. Something is really wrong with me these past few days. I have no idea this is so!

Something is definitely wrong when I go to school and I just can't seem to concentrate in classes! I can't seem to do my papers. I can't seem to grasp things as well as I used to!

Maybe I lack discipline nowadays. But the mid-years' are in 2 days time! This is no joke! Some how I can feel myself trying to break-free, but something is pulling me back! Something is really wrong!

I just hope that days will change! Things have to change. I think I'm gonna sleep now for a change. I've not done my homework but maybe a change in sleeping time may help. I hope it will help! I really need a change!

In need of a change,
CCA.

SWS Performance

2009-04-26T23:59:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

I am proud of myself today! Though I barely slept for 3 hours last night, I was able to wake up at 8 AM. Yes, with the help of Caroline and we set off to study together. Pretty sad, though. It wasn't as fruitful as I had hoped it would be.

We were at Tanglin Mall. The place was not that conducive and we moved to the Starbucks at Wheelock. Oh yeah, we had brunch at McD. It was was not really a brunch. It was breakfast, actually, but I did not eat my lunch.

We went to Paragon. I went there to watch the SWS perform, actually. I was amazed when I saw a boy maybe about 10 years old in the ensemble. He's a Japanese. Awesome man! :) The performance was alright. Got treated to ice-cream! Whee! Oh, and it's Sir's birthday today! Happy birthday, Sir! :D

We almost practically "sabotaged" sir. Haha! Cheryl and the others bought present for him and we sang him a birthday song in public pretty loudly. His wife and children were there to support him too. His children are sooo cute!! XD Haha!

To my surprise, some people actually really went forward and dance to the songs played by the ensemble! And there were quite a number of couples!

Then, I had dinner with Caroline and Siska. It's been pretty long since the last time I met Siska. About a month? We ate at Sushi Tei. Caroline had to go home first, sadly. I went to settle my M1 stuff too. Finally, my number is in use again! Good news!! :D

Oh yeah, before that, Caroline went to PS Cafe to have their salad. I passed on that one.

Stupidly, I realised that although I spent my whole day with Caroline, we did not take pictures together! -___- Pretty stupid, I feel. Anyway, I shall switch back to my old number tomorrow or sometime soon.

PS. I am in no mood to go to school agian! X_X This is bad!

With love,
CCA.

Ingkim's Mom

2009-04-26T03:48:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

Just a rough update on the recent going-ons.

Well, I figured that V Chia has turned 180 degrees from his former self a couple of days ago, Tuesday. Really disappointed in him. If I were his friend or something, well, I don't know. I'll be effing sad, you have no idea!

So, I ate during recess and it was Social Studies class after break. I was only late once and learnt my lesson after that. I was never late ever again! What right does he have to hold me and effing scream in my face? Seriously, if he had some anger management, or some uncontrollable disease, he should go for a check-up, I'd say. A thorough one, please.

Moving on, my exams are really near now. It's in 4 days time. Anyway, ingkim came over. Her mom had an operation and did I mention before that her mom is really nice to me? Yeah, she is. I am really grateful for that.

She's fine now and they're all in the hotel right now. They're gonna fly back to Indonesia on Monday. They've been here for about a week. Time sure flies.

Oh, and there was this really bad thunderstorm-like night. It was a Thursday night, I think. Could hardly sleep. On Friday, I joined in the dance lesson again. It was pretty fun. Had Dinika to come and join me. :) It's been soooo long since the last time I so-called "danced" with he! :D

Oh yes. Speaking of Dinika! Haha! She's been tight with Joe these days. Geez, I'm jealous, I'm tell you! Hell yeah I am! Haha! :D *clears throat* what if the two of them get together?? :D THAT'LL BE AWESOME!!! Heeee!!

I soooooo can't wait for the continuation of the story!! ^^ And speaking of Joe, miss him so. We've not really been in contact. Well, guess I pretty much know the reason why now! :D

Okay. I went over to Alfreda's workplace today. It's been pretty long since I talked and hung with her too. She's doing great! :) Awesome!

Alrights. Now, I shall sleep! It's freaking 3.59 AM!! And I'm supposed to wake up early tomorrow!! Ahhh!! SCREW ME!!

With love,
CCA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMRIT!

2009-04-20T01:11:00.001+08:00

Dear blog,

Yep! You guessed it! Amrit had her birthday not too long ago. Well, Phyone and I met up with her today for a belated birthday thing.

I hope she enjoyed herself today! :) It was really unplanned but I thought today was pretty fine. We caught up with each other. And the of them were practically ganging up on me! Well, we were talking about our schools and they were apparently really proud of their schools. Geez! Screw me!

Oh, by the way, Amrit is pregnant. Haha! She's not married yet too!! Hahaha! Oh, and we were comparing our countries. Me with Indonesia, Phyone with Myanmmar and Amrit with India. It was pretty funny, and the three countries apparently has many in common! :D Haha! How awesome!!

Alright. I shall sleep now! It's getting late and I have a long day tomorrow! Oh! Did I mention that I watched The Sixth Sense alone last night? Yep, I did! How amazing, huh! XD

Nights,
CCA

Alone Again

2009-04-19T01:10:00.002+08:00

Hey blog,

My parents flew off yesterday. I don't think I've mentioned that. So, the house is empty again. And when I say empty, I do mean it almost literary. My sister has been hanging out and I've been the little angel at home.

I've been watching a couple of Bleach episodes these. Ya know, catching up and all that I've missed out. I'm currently on Episode 190 now. They're just about to get back to the main story-line. My sister introduced to me this other anime entitled Les Miserabelle, if I'm not wrong. But I'm not gonna touch any time soon, though.

Plus, I stumbled on Paula Ambul's RAH! It's a cheerleading competition show. Pretty interesting. Maybe you should check it out someday. :)

Alright, I shall sleep now. Oh, I'm missing many people right now. I hope I get to see them soon~.

Oh! And did I mention that I'm done with Breaking Dawn? I was done with it a couple of days ago! On Tuesday. And am currently on Lovely Bones. Yes, it's that book. The one with a pretty freaky beginning. I'll see how the story goes. :)

Good night,
CCA.

Choir's SYF!

2009-04-18T02:17:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

Yey!! Guess what? I was right!! The choir attained Silver too!! ^^ I knew they could do it! I knew they'd get a silver at the very least! :D

Glad I was right! :) Now we can all study will more ease!

Oh, and I can't wait to hear the comments the judges have for us. We'll most probably hear the comments this coming Monday, I reckon. I hope there are some great comments to make our day!

Oh yeah, speaking of which, I was introduced to this great playlist. This guy is really great, I tell you. He uploaded all bands' recordings and I can even hear our band's! And yeah, I can hear why we are not able to get any higher than silver. The recording really explains a lot. This is the website: SYF Central Judging by Velovictor

Well yeah. That's about it for now. Oh! I finally met Chenliana and Angelin again! It's been a few weeks now, hasn't it? We went to watch a movie. Oh, how long has it been since the last time I went to the movies? Ages.

We watched 17 Again. It's the movie with Zac Efron as the main character. It was not bad. Not bad at all. In fact, it was pretty good. :) Really sweet and there were some cliche parts but good overall :) Really not bad at all.

Oh, and speaking of movies, I'd like to scream at the movie theatre's managers! They're showing the nice movies these days! When I am about to have my exams in a week's time! And guess what? When I was free, there was no nice movie at all!! This is frustrating!

Yeah, sure. It's kinda good too, in a way. They're helping me to cut down on my expenditure. Oh wells, I can't wait for DVDs and free time now xD hahha! :D

All right. I shall end it here now. Good night!

With love,
CCA.

The Mid Years in 2 weeks

2009-04-14T19:36:00.002+08:00

Hey blog!

So my parents came, but they went away 2 days ago to Malaysia. I'll be expecting them back tomorrow night.

School has been pretty merciful so far. I am enjoying it. I hope I did not say anything too fast. Tomorrow is Wednesday, and I realised a pattern in my thoughts. I figured that I have been wishing that my Mondays will pass by fast because it's a long day. Then, I'll look forward to Tuesdays. Next, I'll dread Wednesdays but I like the mornings. Thursdays will be my anti-dote for Wednesday and then Fridays seem like my off-days.

However, this pattern will soon change, I feel. The mid years are just around the corner and my big papers for mother tongue are coming soon too. I hope my parents and sister being here will help, instead of putting more unnecessary pressure on me.

Wish myself all the best! For a better tomorrow. I really hope that I'll do well in my 6 subjects!

Love,
CCA.

Arrival of Parents

2009-04-10T23:37:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

My mom and eldest sis arrived two days ago, which is why I'm seldom online. And I will not be online as much from now on, I reckon. My dad and some other family members will be arriving tomorrow.

I am somehow glad, yet regretful, that they are here. Glad because I finally have accompaniments in my house. Regretful because, of course, my movements are highly restricted. Like how my plans to go to East Coast Park had been cancelled, though I've planned it for weeks.

I am also glad because, with the accompaniments, I feel safer now at home. Yes, my sense was back a few days back, when I was writing about how I could not wait for the arrival of my parents. However, I did not feel it no more thereafter.

Well, yeah. That's about it now. Easter is here!! :) Happy Easter! Thankfully, I am still allowed to join Amanda tomorrow. Till next time then!

TTYS!
CCA

Mid Year Examinations

2009-04-08T00:20:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

With the SYF behind us, I now have a reason to rejoice. Yet, to be sad too. I rejoice that a burden had been lifted, but yet another is coming.

The mid year examinations are around the corner. I really don't want to meet them. I don't know if I'm ready yet. I only have less than 25 days. Wish me all the best!

Oh yes, the Chinese O levels are near too! Gosh.

Nervous,
CCA.

Silver Tastes Just As Good

2009-04-06T23:50:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

We had our SYF today, as you should have known. I am happy to tell you that we attained a silver!!! Yes, it is not a gold but silver is just as good! It is our expectation and we've hit it! Everyone did a great job! :)

Frankly speaking, I was getting pretty skeptical at the end of our performance. I went kinda moody and mute. Sure, as per normal, there were people crying and others talking to each other, comforting each other. I just went mute. Almost like the last SYF that I had, except I felt worse this time around. I was almost sure that we would get bronze, I had no idea why. It was a vibes kinda thing, ya know.

Sir said we did well, though. So did the alumni. However, I thought, they might have wanted to comfort us, that's all. As you should have known too, this is my last year in participating in the SYF. I was really hoping that I could go back to the Singapore Conference Hall (SCH) and to hear the results live.

Thankfully, we were allowed to and we went there :) As a band! Guess what? The most annoying thing ever, was the fact that we actually got to SCH on time, but Aishah, Eunice, Ting Shiuan, Candice and I were so busy trying to smuggle their food in, that we actually missed the whole announcement!

Yes, I actually went it, still looking for a seat, waiting there as though the results were about to be announced. Some of the band members who were there first were already smiling and Dhurkesh actually slapped Hi-five with me. Still, I did not figure out what had happened.

About minutes later, when I settled myself in my seat, Dhurkesh turned his head towards me and asked me where I was heading to. Obviously caught off-guard, I asked him why the hell I would head elsewhere when I was waiting for the results. It was then that he revealed of our silver achievement!

I was so shocked! So happy, so ecstatic, yet disappointed! I could not believe that we've gotten silver! And, I could not believe that I had missed the announcement! I felt like a total idiot, yet I was over-joyed! Trust me, you do not know how silly it felt! XD

And then we went to the balcony again. This time around, there were tears, joy, and laughter. All for the right reasons. :) Glad we made it! We made it.

Took lots of pictures too! I wanted to take a picture with sir at the end of the whole thing, but Aishah was so eager to leave. So yeah, I tagged along with her. The rest of the band were still there. As you should have known me by now, I like to stay behind. (I know I'm weird) And it was pretty sad to leave them behind. They might have a celebration for all I know. =/

Oh wells, most importantly, I am now able to say with relief, a big heave of sigh and mere satisfaction, "We made it."

With love,
CCA :)

SYF Day

2009-04-05T22:20:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

I am proud of myself today. Not too proud, but acceptable. At least, I tried to do something and not to waste it fully. I did my chores, made a point to dish up some food for myself, and I went to the gym. :)

Sadly, I did not touch any homework. Tomorrow is the SYF day. I decided not to do so and I am planning to sleep soon. It's pretty early, I know. Somehow, I guess I've exhausted myself? Chatted with Caroline. It felt as though we've not been chatting with each other for so long. Oh, I caught up Phyone too.

I had also planned on what I'm gonna do this coming weekend. Easter celebration sure is around the corner!

Oh, not to mention, I really am looking forward to the arrival of my parents and my sis. I have no idea why, but I just can't wait! Can you believe this? By the way, I am sort of having migraines right now too. Maybe that's one of the reasons why I want to sleep early.

Hope tomorrow will be a good day! I really do! All the best to me~!

Signing off,
CCA

Breaking Dawn

2009-04-02T00:05:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

Did I mention earlier that I was done with Eclipse? Well, yeah, I was! :) About 2 days ago and I started on Breaking Dawn.

I can't believe I've read 3 full-pledged novels in less than 3 months! That'll make 3 and one-eighth, actually. Haha! :D

Anyways, speaking of which, I need a dawn to break in my life right now too. SYF is drawing near. We're left with 5 days. Hopefully, the end of the night will come together with it and shine the first of lights.

Good night!
CCA

April Fools!

2009-04-01T00:19:00.002+08:00

Hey blog!

Guess what? I just won myself a thousand dollars!! How amazing is that!! Well, haha. Happy April Fools' Day! XD I know, I'm lame.

Anyway, the end of March is here and the start of April comes. In 6 days time, we're about to face SYF. I am definitely going to be nervous on the day itself. I wonder how things will go. I hope I'll do fine.

Anyway, I pretty much screwed my March here and there. I hope that with April here, I'll be able to patch up those holes again.

I'm also pleasantly surprised right now. My mom told me that they are coming soon, about the 6th and it's been long since the last time I genuinely look forward to their arrival. I have no idea why. I guess it's because of some things that need to be repaired. Or maybe because of the fact that I'm hoping, with their presence here, they'll ground me from going out, or something. Yes, sadistically ironic, but true.

Kin Weng's about to fly to Perth soon. Most likely on Thursday. It's been so long since the last time I met him. It's kinda sad. Hope he's coming back soon. :) Gonna miss him ^^ Well, not like as though I did not, but the knowledge that he's no longer on the same island does make a difference, doesn't it.

Also, I met with Ogaki yesterday. He was asking if I've been hanging with Joel and the guys. Apparently, they still hang out together and I'm missing. Well, not like they care or anything, but I do wish I was there. Though it's pretty obvious that I'm pretty much unwanted. Sheesh =/

Alright. Today I was very tired. Dozed off at a few occassions. Went to take a nap the moment I reached home. Shikes. Yep, I better go now. Finish up my homework! X.X

Loving ShinHwa,
CCA :D

Earth Hour.

2009-03-29T16:42:00.002+08:00

Hey blog!

Updates on the latest happenings. Was supporting Carmen on the 27th. She was great! :)

It was a concert put together by Ruth Ling, a local artiste. Surprisingly, she is good. She sang a Christian song entitled A Certain Breakthrough and I enjoyed it very much. It was really nice. She played the piano really well too. :)

So, there was an a cappella group. Usually, the sopranos, altos or the lead singer will take the limelight. However, the surprising thing is that, the singer who grabbed my attention was actually the bass. Frankly, I felt that he hit the notes most precisely compared to the others in the group, and his notes were really low. I was amazed. Haha!

After which, we went to Spize for some supper. I was actually not planning to eat supper, was full already. However, Miranda was hungry. So I obliged to share the meal.

Then, we have the 28th! It's the Earth Hour day! Well, yeah. It was supposed to be an hour, however it stretched and it pretty much became and Earth Day kinda thing. Haha! Was at the waterfront with Caroline. Glad we went there! Glad she asked me to ^^

Frankly, I did not know who were the people on the stage at first. They were definitely a band of local artiste. Well, their frontman was really good! Her voice was awesome! And the best was that she had a laughter which calls for world peace! Haha! :D Really powerful bombastic laughter! XD

They sang fun songs like Amy Winehouse's Rehab, I Will Survive and Caroline's BOOM DE YA-DA!!! XD HAHAHAHAH TOTALLY AWESOME! She also sang song requests like Hey Jude, More Than Words and a BIRTHDAY SONG! Hehe!

And so much for switching off electricity eyh. Hehe! It was really awesome though ^^ Had a great time! :)

Signing off,
CCA.

Love Artistes. Love Polaroids.

2009-03-24T22:57:00.002+08:00

Hey blog!

Haha. I don't know this will be the how many thousandth time I'm gonna say this, but I'm still gonna say it anyway, I love artistes! I'm fond of the idea of becoming one and I'm fond of being a fan of one. I just think that it's awesome~! :) Was looking at ShinHwa's pictures moments ago. It triggered my artiste-craze again. Haha!

Oh, and I love Polaroids too. Or Polaroid-likes gadgets. Preferably Polaroids, of course. Lovey!! :)

Oh, and I've gotten my blue card today. It's a joy, yet not at the same time. It's for the greater good, anyway.

So yeah, am really tired and my homework is not done yet. Am gonna sleep now, hoping I'll be able to wake up early tomorrow to do. Wish me the best of luck!

I had a dream,
A dream of hope.
A hope for the future,
A bright one for sure.

I had a dream,
A dream of faith.
Faith in myself,
To infinity and beyond.

Loves,
CCA.

Proud of Myself! :D

2009-03-23T23:09:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

Well, first and foremost, I've got to thank Miranda Mazuki. She helped me in cleaning up my house, big time. My house is still not clean, but it is so much neater! I wish I had taken pictures. So that I can show you the before and after effect.

I promised myself that I shall keep it as neat as this as much as possible. I am just afraid of the up-coming arrival of guests.

Anyway, to top this occasion, oh shoosh!, I've decided to clean my fan!!! A round of applause for me, please. It has been there in the house, serving my family faithfully but we've sort of left it forlorn. I bet that this treat has cheered it up! Oh yes, the wind blowing out of it is so much cooler now! Hallelujah! It's really needed in poor Singapore.

Alright! Now, for updates. I visited Sherman just now. Oh, by the way, I've baptised him with a new name and he shall be called Isabella Sherman Swan from today forth. Simply because of the fact that I'm reading the Twilight saga now. Secondly, because I think that name suits him and last but not least, because he is, after all, prone to dangers.

Yep, and I met the other guys thanks to the visit too. Had dinner together with them. Well, actually I ate mine beforehand. Was pretty cool. There were me, Miranda, Sherman, Terrence, Marcus, Kwek and Yao Jue. Sweet and was really sad that I did not have camera with me and that I had to leave early. Yes, I still keep my quota in mind. Keeping in mind that I'm supposed to be a nerd this year, though it doesn't seem to be coming out right so far.

Wish we have more meet-ups. I shall, however, stay at home for the next 4 days or so. Shall make myself proud!

With love,
CCA.

Angelin's Birthday Party

2009-03-22T23:31:00.004+08:00

Hey blog!

It's been some time since my last post. I just read Caroline's blog and was brightened up by her post on the 30th. What was it about? Bak Chor Mee :D Haha! Yeah, classic!

Anyway, I've not been on my computer for some time now; let alone coming online, not to mention on MSN. So, the March holiday was not much of a holiday for my physical being. It was quite a rest for my brains, though. I'm glad. However, physically, I am still so tired like nobody's business.

It felt as though I've just skipped through my holidays. I should be strolling past it! Not just hop! I need more rest!! I am not done with the homework given too! I am not able to recall the things that I've learnt fully too. Okay, so maybe school should re-open tomorrow, but we should be given more holidays in between!

So I'm doing still currently doing my homework now. I am really tempted to just close the books, pack my bag and go to sleep. Of course, I tried my best not to. Oh, by the way, I'm done with New Moon about 3 days ago and now I'm about athird into Eclipse. :) Awesome eyh!

So, the highlight of the past few days! It's none other than Angelin's Birthday Party!! Woo hoo!! It was great! ^^ I love the part where the top 3 best-dressed males had to sing! :D HEHE! Oh, I wore the most informal outfit too. Gaah, I thought it would be fine with my white top. Hey, it's pretty different for me to be wearing a dress already! (Although I wore jeans in the end)

Alright, blog, I shall go off now! :) Good nights!!

P.S. I got over the "Cindy" problem already! :) YEY!

Signing off,
CCA.

New Pair of Jeans!

2009-03-17T23:48:00.002+08:00

Hey blog!

I've got GREAT news to tell! And a bad one too, actually. Went to the ICA building today. It was horrendous. My sister and I did not have cash on us. I know, it was pretty stupid how the two of us were cashless together.

So, I had to walk thousands of miles to get to the ATM machine in order to withdraw. No, I was not stupid. I knew about the machines at the MRT station and the one near the HDB flats. Guess what? They all broke down! I'm sorry to say this, but I really am pissed at the officers. They were totally ineffecient. What's the whole point of putting two ATM machines near each other? Of course to make life more efficient for the residents of Singapore! In order to cut down the long queue and in case of break-downs on either one of them. It totally defeats the whole purpose this time.

Anyway, I had my exercise of walking from Lavender all the way to Beach road, at Bugis. Pretty good exercise. After all, my plans for exercise this morning was foiled.

Now, to the good news! I had a new pair of jeans! :D Yeps, went shopping today with my sister!! How long has it been since the last time I went shopping? Gosh, I have no idea! Oh! And how long has it been since the last time I saw a good pair of jeans? FOR EVER. Yeah, it was the best but it was good enough, at least. :)

I feel so happy now ^^ Although tired at the same time. Alrights, that's it for now. Gotta sleep!! Nights!

Love,
Clarissa.

Turned-Off

2009-03-17T00:27:00.002+08:00

Hey blog,

Just a head-up: I've always had a bad vibe about under-age parties and was invited into joining it a couple of times. Of course, I rejected them. Well, was invited again and I thought, hey, why not? Then I thought about it again and I really did not want to go, but well, since I already made a promise and since the odds of enjoying seemed to be higher than the norm, I still went anyway.

Pretty was there too and he encouraged, if that's even the right word, to go. Frankly, I was pretty tempted to go with all the invitations and by Alfreda. So yeah, I was not reluctant to go, don't worry.

However, when I reached the Grand Copthorne Hotel, it suddenly struck me real hard - the fact that the under-age kids will be there, the large number of people that will be crowding the place and the annoyance of it all. What really made it bad was when Alfreda finally told me that there would be about 3,300 bloody people queueing up. Do you have any idea how small Zouk is?! Yes, blog, I was turned-off.

Well, the rest of the story is history. They need not be transcripted, or authored, here. Glad I was able to meet Pretty. Learnt a lesson. It was a fine night, or well past mid-night. :)

Signing off,
Clarissa.

Please Forgive My Take-Offs.

2009-03-14T00:46:00.003+08:00

Hey blog!

I do realise that I've been really tired these days. At times, I'll be pretty absent-minded too and my schedules are usually tight. Well, maybe it's quite loose on other days. On those days, I'll be resting my butt out.

So, I hope that everyone around me will forgive my take-offs to another land, having to call me back to earth.

Thank god! It's the start of school holidays. It's not really a holiday, though, since I'd still have to go to school on weekdays for practices. Hopefully it won't be too tough on me.

Oh! HAPPY BIRTHDAY to FINNA APPA! :D It was her birthday yesterday! Celebrated with her! :) First time I got rejected too. Damn!

Hehe! Oh yeah, and that quenched my temptation to go. :) Will see how it goes and I'll go with the flow. Hope the competition will be great~! :)

Loves,
Clarissa.

Future Talk

2009-03-10T22:58:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

I just had another future talk with my mum and sister. Remember how we talked about me getting into college and maybe getting into UCLA if I'm smart enough? Well, yeah. We talked about schools then, but we did not talk about faculties. We thought of me joining in hospitality, which is of course almost impossible.

Well, in today's talk, my mum actually mentioned architecture. This idea has actually been playing in my mind, a toy. Never did I think of it as a possible future endeavour. However, my mum said that it would suit her liking just fine and the prospect of it is good too.

One thing, though, is quite a hindrance to me - my math. My math is not good, and it is definitely needed if you want to be an architect. It will also be a very rough route. Fine, which route is not tough, to begin with, but I am sure that this is gonna be really tough.

Speaking of my math, let's come to talk about my results. It is horrible. I barely passed my English and Humanities. Probably flunk my sciences, POA and A-math. I did pass my Chinese, which is good, but not satiable. My e-math was the best so far.

I hope everything is going to be alright and I shall try to work-out more often from today forth. Oh, did I mention to you before that I've been having my sit-ups and push-ups routine again? Yep! I proudly did! It's been going on for about 2 weeks now. Oh, and I also some weight, even without me realising it, unintentionally. :)

That's it for now then! Hope the future is not bleak!

Signing off,
Clarissa.

Happy Birthday Peng! :)

2009-03-08T00:42:00.004+08:00

Dear blog,

It was Peng's birthday and we celebrated it with him on Friday. Bought him some truffles (I think they're ze best!!!) and a foil balloon with the Disney Princesses imprinted on it, saying "Happy Birthday Princess!" XD Haha! Super cute! :)

I got home pretty late and my dad just arrived from Indonesia. I was pretty sure that I was in hot soup. However, thankfully, the situation was under control when I got home. Then, another problem arose. I was supposed to meet Chenliana for lunch together at Hilton. My sister reassured me that everything should be fine.

True enough, I was allowed to go after accompanying them to the doctor. Had a couple of pictures. Shall post them some day, or maybe not, but they're uploaded on Facebook anyways.

Angeline and I went over to Chenliana's and we looked at the pictures she had. Some were really cute, and oh, I saw their partners. Seriously, I get really happy whenever I see a happy couple and frustrated whenever I see troubled couples. Yep, the two of them are sure troubled and I was pestering them to just get it done and over with - grab the guys! XD

Then, I was about to go home when Chenli said that she was going to cook dinner for us. She cooked well. Dinner was good, so was lunch. Thus, Cindy Clarissa Adriaan is gaining weight again. This time, by megagrams.

With that aside, we have the Sports Fest coming up next Sunday. Kiat Guan had confirmed my team mates - Alfreda, Daron, Justine, Terrence and me. Obviously, I am the only extra in the team. How aweful! I guess I'll just go there, root my feet into the ground and be a mascot for the whole team. This is going to be embarrassing.

Next, I am still in a delimma about whether or not I should go for ROMP IV. It is definitely very tempting and being the good girl that I've become, weighing the pros and cons has become an essential.

Thus, this is what I have figured out.
Cons:

I will be too tired from the competition (even if I'm just going to be a mascot).
I will have a hard time getting ready since I'll be tired, plus, my parents are here.
I have school the next morning, thus, I'll have to leave early.

Pros:

I'll have fun.
I'll gain a night out.
I'll get to see Pretty in a club, finally! :D Haha!
I'll content my temptation.

Alright, I don't know how obvious it may be, but I feel that it is obvious enough that I should not be going. However, things may still take a different turn. Till then, I shall not hope high.

Putting that aside too, I've just received Angeline's All White Party invitation today. The date will be the 20th, pretty near. I wonder what I should wear. I wonder what is going to happen and I wonder how everything will go. Smoothly, I hope . :)

With this invitation, Angeline also revealed to me that she has a friend who has the same name as me. Turns out that she does not have the best of personalities, and probably one of the worst ever. It was a total turn-off. I need to get myself away from my own name for a moment now, and shake the idea of people shunning at the call of "Cindy"off my mind as soon as possible! All thanks to her. Hey, I am not trying to judge, it's just that the stories that I've heard are horrendous.

So, do me a favour and address me by my middle name, as some of my friends may already done since ages ago. :)

Till next time,
Clarissa.

Weird Nightmare

2009-03-04T20:59:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

I had a really bad nightmare last night. It was weird too, like as though I was being warned about something, but I could not figure out what it was supposed to mean.

So I was walking down the flight of stairs in front of the club house, under the shelter, as for normal. The people who I saw next were really random. They were David Archuleta and David Cook! Oh, there was their manager too. Somehow, my principal was there too.

Anyway, I was so shocked when I saw David Archuleta but my principal told me to make sure that I was wide awake and not sleepy anymore, and told me to re-confirm with him that I was by calling him, before he left the scene.

Having both Davids there obviously made me excited and I called him immediately to report to him that I was really wide awake. Then, for some reason, I started walking back up the stairs again when I saw Archuleta there. "Which way are you going?" he asked me and I pointed up the stairs. He gave a look and thought aloud that he was going the opposite direction, like he was somehow repelled to go his intial route because he was afraid a fan of his was stalking him. I shrugged it off, anyway.

Then, I could hear the sound of heels walking my direction but I saw nobody. I just continued walking, feeling that a pair of heels just passed by me but there really was no one! When I've reached the top of the flight, a friend of mine frantically told me "Cin, be careful if a pair of heels is walking your way!" I was shocked. "Make sure you get out of its way!" she continued.

Of course I asked her what was wrong and what if I did not give way to it, she explained that I would commit suicide or something like that and it was really freaky! I shuddered just at the thought of it and I was so afraid.

However, the next thing I knew was that I was on a bus and I was at some shopping centre and my watch showed that it was only about 5 plus in the morning. I was still in my school uniform, obviously I must have woken up too early and decided to get myself a nice breakfast. Oh, I was queueing up in front of McDonald's, by the way. Then, I saw the trio again. I was pleasanlty surprised at the meeting, but something was just not right.

In that dream, it felt like I was a Cook fan, but somehow I was talking to Archuleta more often, and it felt like as though Cook knew that I liked him and that he was somehow disappointed that I was not really paying attention to him. When I did, although it may not seem like so since I was talking to Archuleta more.

Anyway, the next thing I knew, I had parted from the trio and I did not make it to the front of the line. I did not have McD. Instead, I was in another queue. It was a shop nearby the McD and it serves bread and coffee, much like Toast Box.

Just as I was waiting, a friend of mine tried to frighten me by jumping on my back. Then, we engaged in a small conversation and I woke up.

It was all really really extremely weird! I mean, I was never such a fan of the Davids, and I seldom ever eat at Toast Box. What's more, why would the Davids and my principal be in my house estate?! To top it all, it happened on a school day, in Singapore, with some new ghostly phenomena! This is getting more and more ridiculous and the sleep that I got was hardly even sufficient thanks to the tension that I experienced as I was sleeping. Sighs. Hope I'll understand it soon.

Signing off,
CCA

Prankster Before Sound Check.

2009-03-03T20:54:00.004+08:00

Dear blog,

We just had our sound-check today. I thought I was supposed to serve my detention today and was frantically looking for Mr Sim since yesterday. When I finally found him in the afternoon, he told me that I supposed to serve it tomorrow. Oh well, perfect! Hahs!

Then, I walked up to the fourth floor and put my bad down on the table outside the band room. I wanted to buy myself a nice bottle of cold water and planned to come back up in a split second.

I fulfilled my task and went back up in matter of minutes. Guess what? My bag was missing. I suspected that my band mate had helped me and brought into the band room. I was wrong. I asked around and no-one had seen it. Panic struck me. Just who in the right state of mind would want to steal another person's school bag? And my bag was friggin heavy, FYI.

Well, yeah, as a reflect, I quickly ran down again to the General Office and inquired if they had received any lost bag or any reports about it at all. As expected, there was none. The next move was to search for my friends in the canteen. Whomever there may be. True enough, none of them had seen it. Of course it wasn't stolen! It must have been thrown into a bin or moved by a prankster of some sort.

Obviously, a freaking prankster who has no freaking brains and has no freaking other better freaking things to do! But to take a stranger's bag and place it elsewhere just to have the owner search frantically for it. Thanks a lot, SOB!

Oh, but I have to be mannerly, though, and thank that specific SOB for being nice. He had placed my bag in a corner of the third storey. At least, it was not in a bin or elsewhere or I swear my nerve veins would have burst one after another!

Anyway, it had all been resolved, I shall not remember this incident with hatred and let it slip by. All was good thereafter. We went for our sound check and went back to school. Well, the bus was not exactly on time as the bus driver had made a wrong turn, thinking we were going to Fairfield Methodist. The bus driver must have been a Fairfield Methodist's driver, I presume. Was that close to going to Princess' school. Hee!

Well, yeah. It has been a really long and tiring day. I just got back home not too long ago. Hope everything will be fine :) Oh, my hair rocks today! Taking into account the facts that I pinned it up without mirror and the fact that I had been running like a mad woman and that the day had been tiring. :)

Good night! :)
CCA

Chenliana's Sweet 17th!

2009-03-01T00:07:00.003+08:00

Hey blog!

I've just gotten back home from Chenliana's Sweet 17th birthday party! It was nice! :) Cept for the part where I hardly know a single soul there. X.X

Yulia was in a dress!! :D :D Yes, I know! She looked soo feminine!! Heeee! We're definitely in the same BOAT! I wore a shirt and black jeans, with black high heels. Pretty much semi-formal. Was afraid that everyone would turn up in formal and be the only one alienated there. Turn out that it was pretty much semi-formal ^^ Phew! Anyways, this was how I looked like! I just changed back to my home clothes XP

Hey! It's already feminine!! -____- Chenli's brother and uncle was asking me "is this s guy or girl?" I thought I was pretty feminine already!!! >_<

Anyway, we played games some time in between the event. Can't believe we had to dance, scream, and walk in circles. Haha! Fun much! :) It's been quite long since the last time I did such things.

Hope Chenliana had fun too! :) She look delicious tonight! Heee!

Oh yes, my parents will be flying to Singapore tomorrow. I don't think I can meet up with Alfreda anymore. Shucks! They always come at timings of their own, without any warnings or prior notices.

Oh! And I also feel that I should say this: I have decided to stay in Band 1 for English! :D Hehe. ALL THE BEST TO ME! WOOTZ!

P.S. I found a fun game on MTV's website It's called Mirror Image! :D
Love,
CCA

Pretty Rough.

2009-02-25T23:35:00.004+08:00

Hey blog!

It's been a while and it's been a pretty rough week so far.

Scored pretty well for a Chinese test. At least there's something to rejoice about. Thank goodness! However, every other thing seem to be falling off place.

"Someone must have cursed you real bad!" Was Dinika's comment. Haha, I feel the same way. Wonder who that person is, and what the heck have I done wrong. Just joking, but it's pretty ugly so far, really, and this is not a good sign.

Anyway, I was just falling behind in English. Pretty alright with E-math. There have not been any indications on sciences and humans yet, improving in my Chinese and am pretty much lacking behind in A-math and POA.

Anyway, I hung out with Aishah yesterday. It has been so very long since the last time I met her. It has been really long since the last time I watched a concert band performance too. It had also been long since the last time I had put my heart into music - band music.

After yesterday's performance, I figured that I was not the only one who felt that pieces of my heart has been missing. I finally have the inspiration to try again. I have been practising and all that, but the competition is really near. I am near to blaming myself now. If only I had not fallen out of the league myself. Now I have to work three times as hard just to get back on track again.

Wish me luck! I hope I can do it! I want to be better. Not just good, not just back on track, but be better. Better than just enough.

Oh! I was just done with Twilight. Am reading New Moon now! Awesome, eh!

Look on the bright side,
CCA :)

Dissatisfaction

2009-02-23T00:59:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

I've been in school on time these days. I've tried my best not to fall asleep in class. Yet, I am still not satisfied with my progress.

In the first month, I was able to keep my pace in handing up work on time. However, I do realise that I have fallen back on task again. Feels like I've been very tired nowadays. I've cut down on playing and I've been staying home too.

Hopefully I'll be able to catch up again. I just had a really warm bath and it soothes me a little now. Shall turn in after this, again, with my work incomplete.

I hope I'll be able to be on task again at the end of this week, by the start of next week.

Cheers!
CCA

Frustration.

2009-02-20T00:09:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

I am about to rant about my aweful morning. I had Geography at the top of my time-table and I was looking forward to it, having my workbook newly bought and fresh energy from the awesome Famous Amos and mocha, made by myself, for breakfast.

We were given our test paper back and it was something that I was not really looking forward for as I knew that I had not done really well. Unfortunately, I had worse than I thought and it was all thanks to my little detailed answers. I had all my points written out, however, I did not compare point by point and I did not fulfill my duty to answer the question "why?". Thus, marks were deducted, leaving me with a pathetic 5 upon 15.

Next lesson was English and I couldn't wait to get into class. English is my favourite subject in school. We had a test today. It was on a passage that we have done before. I tried my best to answer as flawlessly as I could and I had not enough time for my summary. I rushed through it and used up every single second that I had.

When the time was up, my teacher told me to pen down or else she'll minus 1 mark. Having written barely 50 words, I decided to forgo the single mark and continued writing. She then told me to pen down again unless I want a mark deducted again. At that point of time, I was only about 80 words or so. So, I thought for forgoing the mark again and stopped only at the third call.

I was so pissed at myself that I could not complete the paper even with my marks deducted unconditionally. To top it off, my teacher actually came up to me after class and warned me that she would actually send me for disciplinary actions just because I did not pen down. Excuse me!

Then, I had a math test. Was still fuming at that time. Hopefully I did well. Oh, and did I mention that I could not answer my POA test? It was horrible.

Anyway, I can only hope for the best now. English was my favourite subject and it still is in present time. I hope it will not change sooner than I thought. As I have mentioned before, teachers play a big role in a student's life. Be it for the better or the worse. The environment counts too.

Despaired,
CCA

Over-Exhaustion

2009-02-17T23:00:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

Was extremely tired, you have no idea. Decided to rest for the day. Had headache and was really in no mood for school. In the sense that I was sure not to be able to concentrate in school. It will only add on to my exhaustion.

Went to the doc just now. Had myself examined and he was a really nice doc. Talked to him and explained that it must have just been due to fatigue. He agreed, adding that it may be because of stress too. It's not stress, rest assured, but my physique sure is stressed out.

With today's rest, I hope I'll be able to face tomorrow with a better health. Had three medicines to drink too. Hell man. Hate medicines. Am arguing should I or should I not drink them. There's one that will cause drowsiness too. Damn.

Anyway, am having a POA test too. Was supposed to be today. Hope I will do well in it tomorrow! :)

Peace out,
CCA.

Tiring Valentine's

2009-02-16T00:51:00.004+08:00

Dear blog,

Had a really tiring Valentine's this year. I do not have a soul-mate yet but I still have my friends. Thank god. :)

Went to meet Caroline and her cell group. Went for their service and it was pretty fun. The pastor was preaching about the top 3 things that woman and man need in a relationship.

The first in woman's list is affection, totally agreed.
The first in man's list was none other than sexual fulfillment, how expected!

The second in woman's list being communication, again, agreed.
Second in man's was recreational companionship. I salute them for this.

The third in woman's was Honesty & open-ness, can't agree more.
In man's was attractive spouse. My salutation just got crushed. Hah!

Well, one thing that got me laughing was when the pastor pointed out that men aren't God. Hence, they need these mortally selfish aspects. This also rightfully justified their needs, I felt. Good job, pastor. XD

And then I met up with Amanda, Darryl Mok (my favourite brother), amanda's friends, Alfreda and Shao Wei. Was supposed to meet up with Phyone and Princess too. Missed Princess a lot. However, due to some unseen circumstances, I could not.

There was a thing that kind of pissed me off too. Shall not think about it no more.

Alright, blog, I shall sleep now. I am so tired physically! I need more rest!! School life is really tough!

In need of rest,
CCA

Happy Valentine's Day!

2009-02-14T01:09:00.004+08:00

Dear blog,

While many rise to the occasion where love is in the air, there are some out there who are not.
While some are spending the day with their counter-part, some are with missing parts.

What I'm trying to say, is that things are different for many people. Nothing is the same. Maybe similar, but not congruent. The same goes for thoughts, theories, believes and principles.

A question came across my mind before and it went "do friendship need constant communication?"
My answer was a simple "no."

I believe that as long as I cherish that friend of mine, communication is not a big problem to face. However, it did hit me. What if that friend of mine does not cherish me as much as I cherish him?

That would be a gamble, I decided. I am just putting my faith and trust in them. Many people will say that I am stupid, some has already done so. I know. In fact, I know that perfectly well. I know that at the end of the day, chances of me getting hurt the most is always the highest. I still believed, anyway.

So far, my friend who I have had for more than 5 years have not been disappointing me. I am glad my "choices" we right. People say that while new things are better than old things, old friends are better than new friends. People also said that you will find your true friends during your high school years, not elementary.

Frankly speaking, I have no comments just yet. My friends that I have met in my secondary school life has been pretty much fluctuating. This is really hard to scrutinize and there are times when I am really afraid.

I do not trust people easily, thus explaining the reason why I do not really have many close friends. Thus, when i do start to trust, or when I have trusted, a person, I will expect more from that person too. Yes, I have always been pretty "picky" about my friends.

Now that is the problem that I am facing right now. It seems like my trust has been misplaced, faith forlorn and guard insubstantial.

I just hope that my decisions in the past has been right. If they are not, I suppose that it is really the time to learn from my previous mistakes. I have to have my heart ready. When it skip a beat, I will know that a new change is about to take place.

Putting all heavy tones aside, HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYONE! Have a great day! :)

Trust (hopefully not) misplaced,
Faith (hopefully not) forlorn and,
Guards (hopefully not) insubstantial,
CCA

Feet Healing

2009-02-13T00:33:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

My feet are healing at a pretty fast rate. Thank god I figured that I should not wear shoes and not to over-walk myself.

The SYF competition is in 2 months time. My Mandarin Oral Examination is in 3 months time. The holidays is in 5 months time and the Mandarin Papers are in 6 months time. Counting down like this really suck man.

Anyway, I am now working on my POA. I think I should be able to catch up before due date. If that is so, I can put my heart at a little ease cause at least I'll be able to secure 6 subjects for the certificate.

Hopefully, everything will be alright. I am currently really open to critiques regarding myself but am easily appalled by grotesque remarks. Hope no grotesque remarks will pass by my ears these days.

Faithfully yours,
CCA

Back to Silence

2009-02-09T23:35:00.002+08:00

Hey blog...

The house back quiet again. Missing Isnu and the guys already D:

School's back!! Screwed the noon of my today. Everything shall improve and be back to normal by the end of tomorrow of the start of next week.

Oh! Heard that my mom is coming here again around the 14th. Gosh, that's like Valentine's Day! Haha! Lucks to my sister! She was planning to date her boyfriend the whole day, methinks. xD

As for me, I shall study more. :)

That's it for now~

Cheerio!
CCA

I Can Cycle!!!

2009-02-08T03:32:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

I have GREAT news to tell! Guess what? I am officially able to ride a bicycle!!! :D Just how awesome is that!!

Went to East Coast Park with Miranda, Siska, Isnu and Anthony today. Jessica Ang, Caroline, Wilona, Harvest and Alfreda could not make it. I am in debt to those who were there man! They taught me how to cycle till I could! And I could cycle without stopping for about 10 minutes, I think. Definitely more than 500 metres! :D awesome!!!

Yes, I am ecstatic to also figure that I am not that bad at Dance Dance Revolution too. We went to an arcade after cycling. Playing DDR is Anthony and Siska's forte, I suppose, and they were playing it. Curious, I decided to try. Well, word up! I could play the easy ones! ^^

After which, we went to eat at Seoul Garden. Totally full. I could have sworn that the amount of food I ate was equivalent to the amount a cow could have eaten. So much for losing pounds.

Lastly, we ended our day by watching The Curious Incident of Benjamin Buttons. It was a good movie. Pretty abstract but good. The end was sad, but Brad Pitt Lovers will definitely love it. He looked sooo handsome!! xD

Anyway, I should take a bath now. It's super late and my leg hurt. Plus, I can assure you that I stink as hell. Catch ya another time~! Good night now.

Happy as can be,
CCA

Painful blisters

2009-02-04T01:09:00.003+08:00

Hey blog...

Jill's party was alright. As expected, I did not know her friends. Thank god there were Isnu and Anthony. They introduced me to this friend of their called Lidya as well. Turned out that we could get along fine too, awesome!

Anyway, Isnu is staying over at my house for the 4 days he's in Singapore. This is the third day already, which means that he'll be flying off tomorrow. Sad. Oh, Dinika stayed over last night too. Heee

Why was she here? Hahas. The norm, dear. She went to party. It was a youth event, said she. Well, I was extremely surprised when I learnt of the people who were going there with her. Haha!

Anyway, I had been having blisters on both my ankles and they're bloody painful, I swear. So I've been dressing them up only with the resources that I had at home. Yes, my blisters burst and they weren't attended properly, causing them not to heal. Till today, they're still excruciating!

And I was supposed to go to school today. There is an exchange with Kranji Secondary School. Shucks! I could not go and told Janice this morning x.x GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

It have to heal REALLY soon!!!

In pain,
CCA

ZIRCA

2009-02-02T23:45:00.003+08:00

Damn blog!

Got an update from Jillian and she has made up her mind on going to ZIRCA. It was in place of former Ministry of Sound (MOS). Yeah, expects it to be awesome, but damn! Since it's new, it's probably tight on the bouncers!

Damn blog, I wonder what sort of ID they accepts. Hopefully everything will be alright. Oh, by the way, Mir is gonna ditch me. Sighs, am hoping I can have my party-partner with me. Out of luck, she doesn't know the birthday girl. =/

Wish me luck~!

Oh yes, and birthday boy Kin Weng turns 18 today! ^^ Happy Birthday to him! :)

Hopeful,
CCA

Had a Blast!

2009-02-01T17:02:00.004+08:00

Dear blog,

I had a blast last night! Alfreda was with me at Kenrick's party. Was wearing my white dress-like top with a green cardigan. Was not sure on which cardigan to wear at first but decided on that after asking for my sister's opinion.

Thanks to Alfreda and my priceless skills in balloon sculpturing, pumping and tying of balloon ends, we helped my poor sister who was in need of help! :D

Ate at Il Lido Italian Restaurant. Met Kenrick's friends. They're really nice :) The food was scrumptious too. The dessert was a tad too much, though; in the sense that it was too sweet - consisting of a piece of mud pie, mud cupcake and coconut ice-cream.

Back at the Villa, we partied till dawn. By the way, Alfreda and my "priceless skills" in balloon sculpturing was totally brushed aside when Justin, a friend of Kenrick's, started sculpturing some. He was good at it, really good.

We were also exposed to their other exquisite talents. Justin and JJ can sing extremely well. They were really wonderful and JJ danced to Beyonce's Single Lady too. He could really move his ass like Beyonce man! Haha!

Alfreda and I also figured that the two of us has the same level of alcohol tolerence. XD I found myself a new awesome party-partner. Just how much more awesome can this get? :)

Sign off,
CCA.

Caroline's BBQ

2009-01-31T12:48:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

Was at Caroline's BBQ party last night. It was pretty awkward, really. Thank god Ce beatrice was there with me. Anyway, we started the fire and cooked for the rest of the people. Yeah, take it as a treat from us to the birthday girl. We're that sweet, you see.

Also, I finally met her New Town friends. The weird, cute and funny. Haha! Right, all those descriptions came from Caroline herself anyways.

Oh and did I tell you that I cancelled my other appointments? Yeah, I did. Was really tempted to go to this dinner with a couple of my friends but I forwent them. Really sweet, no? (Hey, don't reprimand me for being narcissistic! At least I'm not so in front of cameras :P)

Did I also tell you that I was pumped 30 times on Thursday? Yeah, I was. Really tired. I practically fell asleep the moment I landed my head on the bed. Was in a really bad position, by the way, and I woke up with muscle aches on my shoulders and back. Bloody hell. But it's alright, it wasn't that painful anymore during the barbeque. Was just a tad tired.

After that party's done, I am in for another party today. Two in a row, how rare! It's gonna be Kenrick's birthday party. Yes, he is celebrating it much earlier than his actual birthday. I thought it is not adviced to celebrate birthdays earlier? According to superstitions, that is.

So yeah, I'll go get ready in an hours time and set off~! Hope today will be a great day! Oh, I'll be going there with Alfreda, by the way. Haha!

See ya,
CCA

Ear Pleasure

2009-01-27T00:06:00.000+08:00

Hey blog!

Good news! I just added song to you! ^^ You're definitely more hippie now! :)

Ciao,
CCA

Chinese New Year

2009-01-26T23:45:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

Today is Chinese New Year as you should have known. Dad and mom flew from Indonesia and they're already in the room. As such, I won't be able to write as much anymore.

Anyway! Happy Chinese New Year! ^^ I hope it'll be alright. I wonder when they'll go back. Okay, I am not trying to be mean but sometimes having them around me too much do give me stress, ya know what I mean?

Oh yes, earlier on I was looking at Cornell University's site. Totally cool! If only I can enroll myself in that school! They have the School of Hotel Administration, Law, and lots more. However, they only have colleges for arts, engineering, sciences and faculties that I will most probably not enroll myself in. :( Sad. I am totally excited if I can get into their university though ^^

Well, yeah. So, Pasadena and then Cornell. Beautiful! I hope my dreams will come true! ^^

Good night now. I've to wake up early tomorrow!

Loves,
CCA

Nodame Cantabile

2009-01-26T04:27:00.003+08:00

Dear Blog,

Hey! I'm currently watching this Japanese drama entitled Nodame Cantabile. It's about a guy whose totally awesome in music but has lots more to learn. It took place in an academy of fine arts.

Anyway, the drama's totally awesome! He can play the piano incredibly and he even improved although he was already great! Shows a lot that one must never think too highly of oneself. There must be room for improvement somewhere.

Since the setting took place in a university, it pretty much goes through school life. Almost similar to what I am going through now. Though much tougher and cooler. It goes through gatherings, farewells and achievements. Much like what I am experiencing too. Thus, I am able to inter-link my life with the story.

Whenever there was any farewells, I always feel sad. It reminded me so much of what I had been going through. How my friends and family always bid me farewell, till we see next time. That next time is never certain. In fact, there are also possibilities that we may never see each other again.

When I go to parties, I would always try to stay as long as I possibly can. Yeah, sure, if you wanna be one of the top populer kids, you must never be the last to leave. But do I give a shit? Nah, I don't. I have always been trying to embrace every single second of it, knowing that it will never come back again. Knowing that even when such scenes do come again, certain circumstances may change.

Thinking of all these just makes me sad. I've always hated partings. Which is the reason why I hate it whenever people tell me that I do not care about them or that I am selfishly thinking about myself all the time and not giving a damn about others.

In truth, I do care. I don't want to part. I just don't convey such things. There's no use forcing me too. I just don't wanna think about it cause it makes me sad. That's all.

Sometimes, I even wonder if anyone will remember me. I know for sure that I'll remember them, but will they too? The times that we spent together, the fun, laughter, ups and downs.

Well, yeah. As I was watching the drama, all these flooded my mind. It brings me back. The story's so bitter-sweet. Just like my life right now. All the sweet memories but reminiscing too much of them will definitely bring tears to my eyes.

Haha! Anyway, blog, do watch it! It's totally awesome! :) Impressive and bitter-sweet! Oh, and it reminded me of my cousins too! Did I tell you that the main guy character looked like my cousin? Well, he does! He really does! XD Haha! If only my cousin can play the piano as good as he does!

Well, anyway, Enough said! That's all for now.. Till next time :)

TTYNT!
CCA

Inspiration? Motivation.

2009-01-25T03:19:00.002+08:00

Dear blog,

Let's talk about my future now :)

I know it's pretty early, considering that it's only the end of January. However, I need something to push me to do my best during the big Os.

All this time, I've never had a target or goal. I was just doing examinations for the sake of doing them and proceeding to the next level. I've never figured out what I wanna be or gonna be. So, I spent some time thinking. Finally, I came to a periodic conclusion.

This inspiration came from my sister, sort of. I had been thinking of going overseas, either UK or USA. Then, it came down to either going to LA or SF. Finally, I am motivated to go to LA, Pasadena.

With that, I am now motivated to go for O levels! ^^ I will need less than 20 points and that is what I am aiming for right now. Yes, it is not a glamorous target. It may even be laughable but laugh all you want, dear. I am setting my mind to it right now, till my next target arrives.

So, I reviewed my current situation and was caught in horror. I may not even make it for the cut. I calculated the worst scenario that I can ever have and figured that I need to score A2 for most of my subjects. Impossible. Here's my worst case scenario:

Amath / POA - C6
Chinese - C6

Which leaves me with 8 points at most. Hence this conclusion;

English - A2
E-math - A2
Sciences - A2
Humanities - A2

O_O nightmare!!!

I have to do something to my weak subjects!! Or else...

I hope that everything will be fine. Most importantly, I do not want to repeat!

'Nuff said! Till next time then!

Doodles!
CCA :)

A Million Thanks on Brim of 21st January

2009-01-21T23:44:00.003+08:00

Dear blog,

Today was really fantastic! Things happened unexpectedly. As I've posted before, I was not really expecting much today, but truth is really kind with me, and I had a really great time in the day!

Then I thought that I will just have to spend my night with my family. Ya know, a family dinner and that would be the end of the day. I tried to call up some people to come and join me for dinner. Sadly, none replied me and all rejected. I was pretty disheartened at first but later cheered myself up by telling myself that everyone must have been very busy. It's our graduating year after all. What's more, everyone has their own stuff to do. They can't be helped.

Surprisingly, at about 10PM, Caroline called me saying she was already downstairs my block. Taken aback, I got a little pissed off at her sudden motion. It was really sweet that she wanted to meet me at such a late time. However, I did not want her name to be black-listed in my parents' books too.

It turned out that I was given a birthday surprise!! a whole lot of them came by! Even those that I did not expect! In fact, truthfully, I did not expect them at all!

ANOTHER THOUSAND THANKS TO THESE PEOPLE:

Here I'd like to dedicate my thanks to the following people:
- Caroline
- Alfreda
- Miranda
- Sherman
- Yao Jue
- Kin Weng
- Marcus
- Jonathan
- Dylan
- Jerry
- Clive
For coming to my house at such a late time to give me an extraordinary birthday surprise! With Mickey's hand, a small tiny pathetic but yummy cake and a lighter! With presents as well! Love the scarf! :) Thank you for forking out the time. Thank you for making me sad first and mending it later! Haha! I'm not being sarcastic, really.

& those who messaged me in the evening to hours before my day is over:
- Kevin Johan
- Ms Ratna
- Vera Mardjuki
- Tiffany Mak
- Kiat Guan
- Samuel Tan
- Clive

Of course, your sweet messages are never too late! ^^

& Facebook-ers:
- Guan Wen
- Clarissa
- Yao Jue
- Erwin Irawan
- Steffi Hermanto
- Reagina
- Franky
- Eddy
- Iman
- Felicia Moningkai
- Beatrice
- Bina
- Mei Qin
- Liyana (Stockings!!)
- Min Jian
- Kin Weng
- Lakshmi
- Dylan
- Cindy Fu
- Vanessa
- Mandy
- Marita
- Raika
- Andea Lee
- Amy
- Yan Ting
- Hyeon Ji (so long!!)
- Belinda
-Sally

&MSN-ers:
- Charlene
- Clement
- Ren Jie
& I'm sorry I can't remember who else x.x

Oh no, I gotta go now!
Update again!

Alright! It's The dawn of 25th of January and I've updated the list! ^^

Loves,
Cindy

21st January!

2009-01-21T16:25:00.000+08:00

Hey blog!

Okay, guess what? It's the 21st of January again!! One of the most wonderful days of the year! ^^ You don't agree? Well, you have to! :P

It's my birthday!!! :) I'm officially 16 now. Something great, something new, something to rejoice about and something pretty interesting. XD

Firstly, I'd like to really thank all my friends! I seriously mean all. Especially those who've remembered my birthday or bothered to find out or just got to know about it somehow. It really means a lot to me. Okay, let me name some names then XD

THANK YOU A THOUSAND THANKS TO:

Chenliana & Anglen - For spending time over dinner with me last night. Thank you guys so much for the birthday present as well, really appreciate them! They're awesome and cute!! ^^ Thanks for everything!

Miranda - For being there yesterday, today and every other day :P Haha! You were the second to call too, no worries! :) Thank you very much for the present too! ^^ It's the awesome-ness!

Isnu - For, again, remembering my birthday without fail. For your sweet call too ^^ Yeah, you're the first and also thank you for making me the first person who receives a message from your new and proud-to-have E63! :)

Steffi Hermanto - For yes!! Calling me!! All the way from America!! You are so awesome!! I did not expect that at all! I swear. Thank you so much ya! That was really really sweet! Totally! :) Come back soon! Missing you already!

& every single one who messaged me too!
- Anglen
- Vera
- Phyone
- Chenliana
- Mandy
- Reagina
- Fransiska
- Jenny (all the way from Indonesia)
- Isnu (all the way from Indonesia, yes, the call too!)
- Clarissa (my twin!! All the way from Indonesia too)
- Li gui
- Amanda (looooooooong time no talk!)
- Miranda
- Caroline
- Darryl Mok
- Wilona
- Alfreda
- Joel
- Michelle Tanady (!!! All the way from Indonesia :D)
- Bernard (XD)
- Monica Susilo (Bambang Yudhoyono all the way from Indonesia!)
- Choo Cui Ling (!!! CUI LINGGGGG!!!! soooo longgg!!!)
- Kin Weng
- Steffi Elvira (My sisterrr!! All the way from Thailand!!!)
- Adrian Wibowo (I was so shocked!!)
- Bina Monica Surya
- Anthony Kwek (huehue best friends are not for nothing eyh!)

Thank you so very much for all the sweet messages! They really brightened my day! I really mean every single one of your messages! I hope that I did not miss out on anyone!

And you guys do remember me telling you that I've been pretty much detached from school and all that? Well, something really surprising happened today too. Everyone in class and neighbouring classes actually sang a birthday song for me today. It was so touching!

So here's a special thanks to:
Everyone who had sung for me. It was really pretty for you guys to do such for me!
Even though I later found out that my birthday was known through Facebook xD haha! :)

& also to those who wished me face to face:
- Shawn
- Soon Ji
- Xiao Kang
- Marcus
- Fiona Chia
- Felicia
- Jasmine
- Sarah Yeo
- Yi Si
- Hui Jun
- And, ultimately, those who were there singing!

Once again, thank you all very much! I really apologize if I've missed out on anyone. Do tell me!

Well, yep! Though school ended pretty late today, I do feel blessed. It was pretty sad though as I wanted to hang out with my friends or do something together. Quite impossible, I suppose. This is the final year and yeah, we hardly have time or mood. I'll have to enjoy family dinner today man!! ^^

P.S. I can't believe I'm updating my blog at this time of the day! I just feel so blessed and thankful that I have to! Teehee! :D I actually thought of having a tea-break together with people. Pretty ridiculous, eyh? Especially when I have to get home before 7. Bleahx!

With lots of love,
Birthday girl. ♥

Gaining By Pounds & Major Horrids

2009-01-19T22:31:00.000+08:00

Dear Blog,

Right. Today is the start of 3rd week of school. I'd like to start afresh. Meaning I'll change my style of writing, somehow, and I will not be able to update my blog as often as I used to, for sure.

A new year calls for new changes. A new change calls for a new resolution. Here's mine:

1) I'll change my attitude towards studies. No more sleeping in classes. Handing work up on time, hopefully.
2) I'll be punctual every morning.
3) I'll get awesome grades for my Prelims AND O levels.

*cross fingers!!!*

I hope they'll come true! So, I shall erase my bad records and do my best to plant in good ones. I guess I'll just have to spend money on taxis if I can't wake up early to punish myself!

Alright, done with that. Now, I have horrible news to tell! School has been a chore so far and I am hardly enjoying myself. Band was alright, though. Don't get me wrong. It was just tiring.

What made school really sucky was the teacher that I got. Shall not mention name(s). Other than that, everything should be fine. FYI, just a horrible teacher is enough to make your life horrendous.

What could be worse than that? Well, I have been really hungry these past few days. I have no clue why. I am eating non-stop and trust me, you will not want to see me eat. I could have eaten a whole cow. I really gotta lose some pounds soon before I regret it. Shit me!

And what the hell could be even worse than those?! Let me tell ya. I'm having freaking acne-breakout!! *screams* How much worse can it get?

Okay, I know I'm sounding pretty bimbo-tic right now. It's not like I can help it!! Cindy has never cared about her physical outlook before but school has really drove me nuts! I've been studying and staying at home! I've not been out and about!

So yeah, I'll have to lose some pounds and lose those zits too to make my days brighter. At least by a bit. I don't wanna be ugly and fat, with people screaming "get a life!" in my face.

Yeah, I know. Whatever I've written so far sound and seem oh-so-impossible. But trust me, they are real. Believe it or not. A new era has arrived! :)

Sign off,
CCA

Welcome 2009!

2009-01-08T00:32:00.000+08:00

Hey hey! Yeah, it's been bloody long! My bad, I did not update about my leaving Singapore. It was pretty sudden, too. As always, things just happen pretty suddenly in this life or family of mine.

Anyway, the end of 2008 was pretty rough. There were times in 08 where I was about to break down. There were times when I thought I would just give up. In fact, I would have given up, if not for the people around me. Those who've supported me, those who said encouraging words, those who trusted me through whatever.

Yes, there were times when everything just sucked so bad. I thought things would turn out really bad. True, there are certain things that are not as pleasant and I wished them to be up till now. At least, however, I managed to pull through them. Now, I'll just have to fight on.

Bad memories, I had them. Good memories, embraced them too. With the coming new year I hope things will improve. In every single aspect of my life. Life has not been fair to me. I do demand fairness, but life was never fair in the first place, has it ever been?

So, as 2008 was about to end, what did CCA go through?

I went back to Indonesia as per normal. I did not want to, actually. I wanted to spend my holiday studying. Or catching up subjects, at least. None of that came true. Except for the fact that I did my essay.

Met my friends there. Missed Isnu soooooo much! ^^ Glad I was allowed to go out of my house too. God, or I would have been in my house 24/7 there! Oh, also, we went to visit Siska at Depok. That was my first ^^

Then, I went to China. To a city called ZhuHai. I had no idea there was such a place. I did not know it existed! I did not even know which part of China it was in. Of course, I later learnt that it's in the GuanDong province. Well, point is, I had no idea why we went there.

We stayed there for about 5 days. In between, we spent a day at Macau. Stupidly, we had problems with our visas and had to do visas on arrival. Many bad memories there. Anyway, Macau is cool. But I guess it's only populer for it's casinos??

Then, we also spent a few days in Hong Kong. This was the place where we had our countdown. More specifically, at the Disneyland. It was the first time I ever went to Hong Kong and the first time I ever visited at Disneyland at all. Truthfully, I was kinda disappointed. I expected something really extremely breath-taking. I guess I set my expectations too high. Oops!

But nonetheless, I loved it in Hong Kong! Except for the fact that we had an aweful accomodation. Everything was minimalised there due to the high living expenses. Horrible. Trust it to be a tourist spot. =/

Anyway, we went to the populer Ngong Ping 360 there, which is the extremely long 30-minutes ride of cable car ride, and the Ocean Park. Ocean Park was fun! Thank god! It sort of compensated everything ^^

Anyway, that's all for now. Shall continue to study and I'll rant on another time ya! ^^ Nitezz!!